It has been clear to me since high school, although I have tried to pretend otherwise and created a false confusion that way. The single most important aspect of my life is spiritual practice, in a community such as Kanzeon in Salt Lake City or Vækstsenteret in Denmark (Jes Bertelsen). A place where there is a great deal of clarity about the nature of mind/Existence, where there is comfort and fluidity in how to express it, and that is comfortable in the western culture. This is the main piece in the puzzle of my life, and when it is in place – all the other puzzles both seem less important and can fall into place more easily. When I try to fix the smaller pieces first, it brings a sense of hollowness, dissatisfaction and often frustration.