Inquiry :: Life is a Burden

 

Life is a burden.

  1. Yes (Feels true, to a certain extent. The sense of it being a burden shows up as a background atmosphere in my life.)
  2. No (Cannot know that is absolutely true.)
  3. How do I react when I believe that thought?

    I notice a background atmosphere of feeling life as a burden. I feel hopeless. Trapped. No way out. Even when there is no obvious reason for it, there is an overlay of feeling life as a burden. It always stays in the background.

    How do I treat myself when I have that thought?

    I don’t allow myself to not feel that life is a burden. I feel slightly depressed. Hopeless. I don’t engage as much as I would otherwise.

    How do I treat others?

    I seek out others who see life as a burden.

    When did the thought come up first?

    I see how my birth family see stoicism as a value, and the same for my culture (life is a burden, but I can endure). My birth family see life as a burden, so I naturally picked it up – innocently. I also see that I think I should see life as a burden, because they do.

    What is the payoff from holding onto that belief?

    I get to be a martyr. To be stoic. To endure. To be a good person, stoic in the face of a life of burden. I get to fit in with others who see life as a burden.

  4. Who would I be without that belief?

    I would see life more as it is, without the overlay of the story of it being a burden. I would allow myself to not have the atmosphere of burden even when there is no obvious reason for it. And I don’t have to see situations that may appear difficult as a burden either. I can remove the whole layer of seeing life as a burden. I am free from carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders, independent of how it shows up.

  5. (a) Life is not a burden.

    Yes, that is more true. Life is just what it is, and the burden only comes through my story of life as a burden.

    (b) My thinking is a burden.

    Yes, that is also more true. My thinking is a burden to me, especially when I think that life is a burden. Or more accuretely when I believe in the thought that life is a burden.

    (c) My thinking is not a burden.

    That is true as well. My thinking is innocent. If there is no belief in thoughts, they are just neutral – just like anything else, like clouds, coming and going. Inherently free from any sting.

    (d) I am a burden to myself.

    Yes, that is true as well. The burden comes from me seeing life as a burden.

    (e) I am not a burden to myself.

    Also true. I am not a burden to myself. Only the belief in the story that life is a burden creates the sense of a burden. Just a simple belief.

    (f) Others are a burden to me.

    Yes, they are when I believe I need to see life as a burden, just because they do.

    (g) Others are not a burden to me.

    Yes, also true. I am the one believing that I need to see life as a burden, if they do.

    (h) I am a burden to others.

    Yes, when I live my life from the story that it is a burden.

    (i) I am not a burden to others.

    That is right, too. I have my stories. They have theirs. If they don’t have a story of me (or life) as a burden, then there is no burden there. They are free from it.

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