Several of my friends- myself included – were as sick as we had ever been this winter and spring, typically with some form of pnemonia. It turns out that there was a surprising number of shared experiences among us.
For instance, we all felt death very close and got to see how we relate to our mortality.
Another thing that happened is something I have seen for while. When the body-mind gets exhausted, for whatever reason, there is less energy for resisting experience. Whatever is habitually resisted in daily life tends to come up.
Knots line up and come through wanting to be seen, felt and loved. Knots made up of shoulds clashing with my stories of what is, and their associated emotions and supporting stories.
For me, it is an invitation to see it, feel it, and this may gradually shift into a sense of appreciation.
Illness and exhaustion is an opportunity for knots to surface. If I continue to resist them, the discomfort only deepens. But if I welcome them, as long lost relatives, it all shifts.
It is easier to inquire into the beliefs behind the knots, and fully allow and be with the emotions and experiences associated with them, inviting in a healing and softening of the knots and my relationship with them.
This also happens in smaller ways in daily life. The state of the body-mind is always shifting, sometimes allowing knots associated with the particular state to surface.
And this too is an invitation to notice the belief-emotion knot, inquire into the belief, and fully allow the emotion in a heartfelt way.
As a good host, I can meet them with friendly curiosity, inquiring into their lives. I can allow them as they are, in a wholehearted and heartfelt way.