Whatever the “I” is doing…

 

At some point on the process, quite late, we paint ourselves into a corner.

There is a sense that whatever this “I” is doing is not going to do it. It can’t touch what I am and everything is.

And there is also an acute sense of the irony of this “I” trying to get rid of itself.

In both cases, this “I” is only spinning its wheels. And gradually wearing itself out.

This “I” as a doer/observer is a gestalt, a fabrication, and it is wearing itself out. (Or more accurately, wearing identification with it out.)

And it is completely innocent. A part of the play of God.

This is something that seems to emerge organically somewhere in the process, maybe after a long period where practices have served us very well. And if it is not here as a living experience, there is no need to be too concerned with it. It comes on its own time.

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Initial outline…

  • later in the process
    • whatever the “I” is doing…
      • is not going to do it
        • doesn’t touch what I am and everything is
      • irony of an “I” trying to get rid of itself
        • spinning its wheels, fueling itself
    • organic
      • emerges organically
      • if not yet there, no need to be too concerned with it, comes on its own time

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