Freedom to be deluded

 

Say that reality awakens to itself, and there is identification as reality awake to itself….

Is that what I really am?

If reality is free to show up as delusion or awake to itself, is what I really am anything other (or less) than that freedom? What is already free to show up as either?

If delusion and reality awake to itself comes and goes, is what I really am either of those?

And when that freedom is lived through a human self, and it is lived in a sane, mature, wise and kind way, how does it look? Can I find what I really am as inherently free to show up as delusion and reality awake to itself, yet seeking clarity out of compassion?

This is also where the headless experiments can be very helpful, finding ourselves as capacity for delusion and reality awake to itself, equally.

Another helpful tool is The Work since an identification as reality awake to itself is a belief. It comes from taking the story I am reality awake to itself as true, and it will have some of the usual symptoms of taking a story as true, such as a sense of unease, precariousness and so on.

Even maps can be moderately helpful here, although not neccesary. A map can tell us that when reality wakes up to itself, this is a possible pitfall so keep an eye out for it. Which is not different from keeping an eye out for the symptoms of taking a story as true, which is a good idea any time.

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All these drafts and outlines is an example of what happens when (a) I am not entierly clear on this myself, (b) I am not quite sure which story I want to tell, and (c) I get caught up in how I have seen or heard others talk about it, yet something else is – at least right now – more honest for me.

draft…..

Reality is free to show up as delusion or awake to itself. Both are the play of Ground, and neither is what we really are. (Delusion here refers to taking a story as true, identifying with a viewpoint and identity.)

As obvious as this may seem when expressed this way, this is also one of the temporary pitfalls on the path. When reality wakes up to itself, the story “I am reality awake to itself” may come up and be taken as true. (And even more confused, a story of “I am awake”, taking the idea of a separate I somehow “being awake”.)

There is identification with an image of reality awake to itself, excluding the image of delusion, and also making it difficult to notice that this is just an image, and that it all is already the mystery that is free to show up as delusion, reality awake to itself, and anything else happening. As Adyashanti says, we have to wake up from the awakening.

The remedies are the usual ones:

Do I find any of the usual signs and symptoms of taking a story as true? Do I find a sense of unease, precariousness, a sense of having to defend, elaborate, support and remember the belief, reactiveness, a sense of I and Other (“I get it, they don’t”), or others seeing us as something other than sane, mature, wise and kind?

Notice that reality is already, and obviously, free to show up as delusion or awake to itself. Is what I really am other than that freedom?

Notice that delusion and reality awake to itself shift, they come and go. If they come and go, is what I really am one or the other?

 

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outline….

  • freedom to be deluded
    • me + I identifications, many variations
      • me = human self, roles in the world etc.
      • I = doer, observer, and more
        • one of these, I = reality awake to itself
          • identification with an image of reality awake to itself, excluding delusion + Ground
          • can notice from symptoms + when shifts between reality awake to itself/delusion (delusion = take a story as true, identify w. a viewpoint)

 

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draft….

Reality is free to show up as deluded or awake to itself. They are both the play of reality, Ground, awake emptiness.

And since delusion and reality awake to itself comes and goes, they are not what we really are.

So when reality wakes up to itself, there can be identification as reality awake to itself, which then clouds it. There is a belief that “I am reality awake to itself” which is not true for both of the reasons above. Reality is already free to be deluded or awake to itself, and both of those comes and goes, so neither is what we really are.

And believing that story has the same symptoms as any belief. It covers up, to some extent, what we really are. It creates a sense of precariousness since there is identification with something that is not always around. It creates a sense of separation. It creates stress and tension. We try to enhance, elaborate and defend the identity created by the belief. And so on.

The remedy is to notice any of these symptoms of taking a story as true, and then inquire into it with some sincerity. What is more true for me? Is it more true that what I really am is the mystery that expresses itself in all of these ways, including delusion and reality awake to itself?

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outline…..

  • reality is free to show up as deluded or as awake to itself (both play of Ground) (inherently equal)
    • delusion and reality awake to itself comes and goes, so not what we really are (although reality awake to itself is the timeless now awake to itself, that which time happens within + as)
    • reality is free to be either, so an awakening will reflect that freedom (+ compassion, aiming for clarity b/c reduces suffering)
      • if identified as reality awake to itself, creates an imagined boundary and take it as real
        • another way to create separate I, can show up as “I am awake, you are not” confusion (instead, what we are is the mystery, groundless Ground, that which shows up as all of this – including delusion + reality awake to itself)
        • shows up the usual ways, including a sense of precariousness b/c try to hold onto awakening and push away delusion
        • is no different from taking any story as true (identification w. viewpoint, identity, role, story + usual symptoms, effects), just that tends to happen at a certain phase in the process, as Ground notices itself (not quite as clear, mature as it can be, will be a little further into the process)
        • signs: “I am awake”, “I am awake, you are not” etc. (+precariousness, defend views/identities, stress, tension, reactiveness etc. – appear other than sane, mature, wise, kind to others/self)
      • identified w. Ground awake to itself, contrasted w. the image of delusion
      • remedy: sincerity, honesty + may be aided by shifts between delusion + reality awake to itself (get to see that Ground is neither + free to show up as either, and that is what we really are)
      • tendency to identify with different stories at different phases in the process
        • me as human, gender, age, roles in the world etc. (inside/outside, a boundary)
        • separate I as doer, observer etc. (center/periphery, more as a point)
        • separate I as reality awake to itself (as opposed to deluded) (may be there, but not what we really are)

“I am awake, you are not” confusion
– instead, what we are is the mystery, groundless Ground, that which shows up as all of this – including delusion + reality awake to itself
– all + everyone already are awakeness, whether it notices itself or not
– is no “I” to own any of it, just the play of Ground

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outline…..

  • reality is free to be deluded or Ground awake to itself (what we really are is neither, Groundless ground is neither)
    • delusion and Ground awake to itself comes and goes, so not what we really are (although Ground awake to itself is the timeless now awake to itself, that which time happens within)
    • also, reality is – quite obviously – free to be deluded or Ground awake to itself, so a (clear, mature) awakening will reflect that
      • if identified as Ground awake to itself, creates an imagined boundary and take it as real (may be expressed as “I am awake, you are not” confusion)
      • identified the image of Ground awake to itself, contrasted with the image of delusion (creates identification as a separate I and all that goes with it)
      • remedy: sincerity, honesty + may be aided by delusion/Ground awake to itself shifting once or more (so see that what we are is not either of those)

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initial outline….

  • freedom to be deluded
    • deluded or ground awake to itself, both the play of ground (deluded = confused, taking stories as true) (neither is what we really are, notice when shift back and forth one or more times, or immediately if clear and honest)
    • when ground awake to itself, recognize that freedom – the equality of both (no story as being one or the other, not identified with a story)
      • not identified as ground awake to itself (ground awake to itself may be there, as play of ground, but not what we really are)
    • yet also, recognize the suffering in delusion, so impulse towards awakeness if that is available, will “chose” that if the choice is available

Whether deluded or awake to itself, it is both the play of Ground. It is the play of the groundless Ground, empty awakeness. Reality is, quite obviously, free to be deluded or awake to itself.

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Reality is – quite obviously – free to be deluded or awake to itself. We see that all around us.

To put it in anthropomorphic terms, it doesn’t care.

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Reality is – quite obviously – free to be deluded or awake to itself. We see that all around us. It doesn’t care, to put it in anthropomorphic terms.

Deluded or awake to itself, it is both the free play of Ground, the free play of awake emptiness.

And since there is that freedom, and delusion and Ground awake to itself comes and goes, it is not what we really are.

So when there is an awakening, one of the identitifications that has to go is the identification as Ground awake to itself. It is just another imagined boundary, another way to not notice what we really are.

When that identification goes, there is the clear recognition of the equality of delusion and Ground awake to itself, and that both are the play of what we really are.

And yet, since this awakening functions through a human self, there is also heart and compassion, and the aim of recognizing delusuion for what it is, since it creates a good deal of suffering.

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