What I see is what I am

 

What I see is what I am.

That is true in three ways:

What I see in the wider world – in others, culture, nature, fictional and real life stories, science, dreams – is a mirror of what is here now. It is a mirror of the characteristics and dynamics here now.

My world – the world I relate to and live within – is my own world of images. It is my own overlay of boundaries and interpretations on pure perception.

And it all happens within and as what I am and everything is.

This is the same from within the views of psychology and spirituality, although in psychology there may be an additional story saying that this is all happening within the brain, but that – of course – is just another story. It is a projection of an image of a brain to the world “out there”. It is part of my own overlay of imagination. It happens within and as what I really am.

There is a quite natural fear in exploring this seriously, and especially in allowing it to sink in – taking in the full consequences of it.

There is a fear of what may happen if I recognize this. Live from it. If I let go of taking stories as true – which is the inevitable consequence of taking this seriously.

What do I fear may happen? I can explore that for each particular story that comes up and is temporarily taken as true – it is an ongoing process.

And I can explore it in general.

I fear I won’t function well in the world (do what is needed for a normal functional life). I fear I won’t live ethically (aka from kindness and wisdom). I fear I will lose ambition (aka curiosity, interest, passion for exploring and learning). I fear I will lose my footing. That I will have no ground to stand on. That there will be no “I” anymore, defined by stories taken as true.

And then some of the assumptions behind those: I need to stay alive. I need others to respect me. I need others to approve of me. I can’t trust myself to live from kindness and wisdom. I need beliefs and fears to live ethically. I need fears to (drive me to) explore the world, learn and develop skills. I need to take stories as true to function.

I won’t function well.

  1. True?
    Yes. I can find where that feels true.
  2. Sure?
    No. Just a fear.
  3. What happens when I take that story as true?
    • I am afraid of seriously explore my experience to see if those three above (the three ways what I see is what I am) are true. I am afraid to find what is honest for me, behind the beliefs and assumptions.
    • I distrust what is honest for me. I distrust my own reality. I distrust reality, life.
    • I live in fear.
    • I make the world smaller for myself, by taking stories as true, so I can feel a little more safe.
    • I try to find “ground” to stand on, by taking certain stories – viewpoints, perspectives, interpretations – as true.
  4. Who would I be without it?
    • Receptive. Curious. Willing and interested in going there, in exploring, seeing what I find.
    • Sense of trust. Trust in what is more honest for me than a story.
  5. Turnarounds.
    • I will function well.
      • Yes. That is as or more likely. Whenever I find what is more honest for me than a belief, I seem to function better. There is no reason to assume that it should be different for some stories – such as the story of “I”.
      • There is a natural kindness and wisdom here, and it seems to function fine when I find what is more honest for me.
      • There is a natural feedback – from others, myself, life – which will guide me.
    • My thinking won’t function well.
      • Right. It won’t function well if “well” is defined by stories taken as true. From that view, it won’t function well. Which is a good thing.
    • My thinking will function well.
      • Yes. That seems true from what I have found so far. When I find what is more honest for me than an initial belief, my thinking is freed up. It is freed from the (imagined) boundaries created by that belief. It is allowed to function and explore more freely.

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outline….

  • what I see is what I am
    • three ways
      • a mirror at a human level
      • my world is my own world of images, an overlay of interpretation
        • very functional
        • good to notice the difference when recognize this and when this overlay is taken as real, substantial, solid
      • all happens within and as what I am and everything is
    • same in spirituality and psychology – convergence here too
      • difference is a story that it is the brain etc.
      • but can recognize that too as a story, happening w/in and as what I am
    • fear of what may happen if recognize it, live from it – if let go of taking the story as true

This is the same from within the views of psychology and spirituality, although in psychology – there may be an additional story saying that this is all happening within the brain, but that – of course – is just another story. It is an interpretation. It happens within and as what I really am.

There is a quite natural fear in exploring this seriously, and especially in taking the full consequences of it.

There is a fear of what may happen if I recognize this. Live from it. If I let go of taking stories as true.

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