Dream: No one experiencing

 

There is a clear recognition that what’s happening is happening to no-one, a visceral panic, waking up from the dream, and shifting out of it. It all happens in a flash.

No-thing is happening to no-one. It is not a new noticing but it is a little different this time. It happens in a dream. It seemed more piercing. And it triggers a strong fear reaction, almost panic.

The recognition itself was simple, clear, and undramatic, and it was followed by panic at a gut level.

Whatever happens is “no thing”. It happens within awareness, and also as awareness. Even what appears as most substantial and “thing like” is a combination of sensations, sight, sound and so on, and a story saying “this is solid, real, out there”.

And it happens to no-one. I can find sensations, sights, sounds and so on, with an overlay of images of a “me” and “I”, and that’s it. It is all happening as content of experience, as anything else. There is no real “I” inherent in any of it.

Day residue: The talk at our local center concluding with a sitting period where we first looked for “things” out there in the world, then for an “I” here.

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I recognize clearly that what’s happening is happening to no-one, experience a tremendous fear, wake up, and shift out of it. It all happens in a flash.

The fear was visceral, in the body, an instinct more than anything else. Looking back, the recognition seems genuine although it could have been just a story of recognizing it.

No-thing is happening to no-one. It is not a new noticing for me, but it was a little different this time. It happened in a dream. It seemed more piercing. And it triggered a strong fear reaction, almost panic. The recognition itself was simple, clear, and undramatic, and it was followed by panic at a visceral and bodily level.

Whatever happens is “no thing”. It happens within awareness, and also as awareness. Even what appears as most substantial and “thing like” is a combination of sensations, sight, sound and so on, and a story saying “this is solid, real, out there”.

And it happens to no-one. I can find sensations, sights, sounds and so on, with an overlay of images of a “me” and “I”, and that’s it. It is all happening as content of experience, as anything else. There is no real “I” inherent in any of it.

“Day residue”: Going to a talk at the local center concluding with a sitting period where we first looked for “things” out there in the world, then for an “I” here.

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