The Story of Job and more

 

Here are some stories from the Bible and the New Testament that have come up for me lately….

The story of Job

Job is purified of shoulds. His stories of what should be and what is, clash. He is humbled. His views are invited – in the strongest possible way – to be more aligned with reality.

Life happens, and it is not always aligned with our personal preferences. We can either throw a tantrum and blame the world, God, others, fate or ourselves. Or we can take a closer look at our fixed views, recognize what happens when we hold onto views not aligned with reality (stress, blame, resentment), and find what’s more true for us. We can (a) replace these stories with other stories more aligned with reality, and (b) softening our hold on these stories in general. We can find more trust in reality and truth. And we can find more comfort in not knowing, using stories as guides for ourselves and yet recognize that they are just stories. Reality is the boss. Through his experiences, Job matures from being blindly caught up in beliefs to recognizing stories more as stories.

Said another way, Job’s individual will (beliefs) is worn off, and he finds himself more receptive to God’s will (reality).

Eventually, as the last beliefs are worn off, God’s will is all there is. The final belief in being an “I” is gone, seen and felt through as only an image, only a story, and the identification as an I as a temporary play of and within God.

My story: I have felt affinity with Job over the last few years. For many years, my life seemed obviously blessed, and then it turned and much has not gone according to plan. I recognize that to the extent I blame life, others, God, fate or myself, I stay stuck. On the other hand, to the extent I allow the flow of emotions, sincerely inquire into my stories about what’s happening, and surrender it all – and all of what I take myself to be – to God and the divine, there is a release. Grace comes in. And even if there isn’t, that is OK too.

Crucifixion

Sometimes, life nails us down. We are held in place. We cannot escape. We cannot escape the situation, and more importantly, we cannot escape our emotions and beliefs. We have to let it burn through. We have to allow the emotions, be them, let them unstick and flow through as they are. And we have to take a close look at our beliefs since they are so obviously at odds with what’s happening. We have to find what is more honest for us than our initial beliefs. We have to find stories more aligned with reality, and through finding the validity in a wider range of stories we can find a way to hold each one of these more lightly. This is always the invitation, but sometimes it easier to “escape” into beliefs, resistance and distractions, and sometimes life is kind in another way and nails us down and hold us in place.

My story: I have experienced this strongly over the last few weeks. Deep childhood fears and beliefs have surfaced, and I have been pinned down by it. It feels like the lid has been lifted, and it’s all right here, staring me in my face. I have had no other choice than to meet and be the emotions, and find what’s more true for me than the beliefs. There is of course more left, but it seems that something has shifted as well. Mainly, I have found a more wholehearted and sincere surrender to the divine. I have found the grace to give the situation and everything I take as me and I to the divine, and that in turn invites grace. To get to this point, I had to (a) ask for it, and (b) exhaust any other possibility known to me.

Resurrection

Smaller or larger resurrections happen when our beliefs, identifications and fixed viewpoints die, and what’s more alive, honest and true emerges instead. It is also what happens when we give it all up to God, to the divine, and surrender in Your Will Be Done, either in small ways in daily life – through prayer and intention, or in fuller way when all other options are exhausted.

My story: Through the (miniature) crusifiction experience, I found a (miniature) ressurection over the last few days. There is a sense of all of me being held by and infused by the divine, including that which I take most as what I am.

Judas

Judas betrayed Christ for a handful of coins. And we all do the same when we take a story as true and get caught up in fears and beliefs. We betray what we are for the false security in fixed views. Judas is each one of us, as is Christ.

Peter denied Christ three times before sunrise, and that is the same.

My story: This one is very familiar. I do it many times daily. I get caught up in beliefs and fears, and betray and deny Christ. The words are a bit strong, but sometimes, strong words are helpful. They help shake me out of complacency and take a closer and more honest look at what’s going on. Also, there is nothing wrong in this, it’s just good to notice when it happens, and what happens when it happens.

Face of God

But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.”
Exodus 33:20

We cannot come face-to-face with God and live. Our identifications cannot live. When reality recognizes itself, when the Divine Mind (God, Buddha Mind, Big Mind, Brahman) recognizes itself, the familiar me and I cannot survive. They are recognized as what they are – stories and images identified with and so creating the appearance of being a me and I, and they are burnt through. Of course, they may re-emerge, but even then, they are not completely believed in anymore. They are seen through.

This is also a warning. Not only cannot the images of me and I be taken as what we are anymore, but it may happen too soon or too quickly. Our human self may not be ready for it. It may not be healed and mature enough, it may not be sufficiently aligned with this reality yet. If that’s the case, it may (a) get burnt out, and (b) the realigning required may be quite dramatic and intense. We may go into a dark night of the soul, which is an invitation for realignment of all parts of us with this new reality. However it happens is fine, it is the play of God, it is one of the ways God awakens to itself and one of the ways the human self realigns. But it can also be quite unpleasant, so the warning is in place. Do your homework – heal and mature in ordinary ways, work with the shadow and projections, embrace yourself as a human being more fully, and allow yourself to ripen in that way.

My story: This happened during the initial awakening. God awoke to itself, and what had been identified with – the me as this human self, and the I as the doer or observer – were recognized as images. The I returned after a while, but there is still the knowing that it is just an appearance created by an image of an I that is identified with. The burnout also happened, perhaps most strongly after another nondual awakening following deeksha. The recognition faded, replaced by fatigue and a long period of undigested material surfacing to be seen, felt and clarified. That is still happening.

Christ

Christ can be seen as a metaphor of (a) the wholeness of the human self, or (b) Big Mind/Heart/Belly. But in immediate experience, Christ has a unique quality – an engaged fiery love all in and around us, and specifically in the heart area and on the top of the head – visible in the energy system as a flame. If we allow ourselves to soak in it, surrender all in our life and all of the me and I to it, it is deeply and actively transformative. All that’s needed is a sincere invitation and deepening surrender from our side.

My story: I understand intellectually the identification of Christ with the wholeness of the human self or Big Mind, but my experience is of Christ as this alive fiery love all all around and through me, and centered in my heart and the top of the head. It is infinitely loving, wise, and most of all, engaged and active. When sincerely invited, it reorganize this human self so it is more aligned with Christ, and it naturally leads in the direction of wholeness my human self and Big Mind/Heart/Belly recognizing itself.  

All of this is of course just one way of looking at it, and it reflects what’s going on for me now.

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  • job etc.
    • job – should vs is, purified of shoulds
    • crucifiction – nailed down, held in place, cannot escape – emotions/beliefs
    • resurrection – what’s revealed after identities/beliefs die, also – what happens when give it all up to give, give all of oneself to god, your will be done
    • judas – betray Christ, as we all do when take a story as true, caught up in fear/beliefs
    • deny Christ – same
    • face of god, cannot see the face of god and survive – identities/beliefs recognized as false
    • – Christ – wholeness of human self, big mind/heart/belly, and also a particular quality – a fiery love in the heart area + top of head (flame)
    • all this, just one way of looking at it, reflects what is going on for me now

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Initial draft….

Here are some stories from the Bible and the New Testament that have come up for me lately….

The story of Job

Job is purified of shoulds. His stories of what should be and what is, clash. He is humbled. His views are invited – in the strongest possible way – to be more aligned with reality.

Life happens, and it is not always aligned with our personal preferences. We can either throw a tantrum and blame the world, God, others, fate or ourselves. Or we can take a close look at our fixed views, recognize what happens when we hold onto views not aligned with reality (stress), and find what’s more true for us. We can replace these stories with other stories more aligned with reality, and we can release identification with stories in general. We can find more trust in reality and truth. And we can find more comfort in not knowing, using stories as guides for ourselves and yet recognize that they are just stories. Reality is boss. Through his experiences, Job matures from being blindly caught up in beliefs to recognizing stories more as stories.

Said another way, Job’s individual will is worn off (beliefs), and he finds himself more receptive to God’s will (reality).

Crucifixion

Sometimes, life nails us down. We are held in place. We cannot escape. We cannot escape the situation, and more importantly, we cannot escape our emotions and beliefs. We have to let it burn through. We have to allow the emotions. We have to let them flow through as they are. And we have to take a close look at our beliefs, since they are so obviously at odds with what’s happening. We have to find what is more honest for us than our initial beliefs. We have to find stories more aligned with reality, and find a way to hold these stories a little more lightly. This is always the invitation, but sometimes it easier to “escape” into beliefs, resistance and distractions, and sometimes life is kind in another way and nails us down and holds us in place.

Resurrection

Smaller or larger resurrections happen when our beliefs, identifications and fixed viewpoints die, and what’s more alive, honest and true emerges instead. It is also what happens when we are to the point when we give it all up to God, to the divine, and surrender in Your Will Be Done.

Judas

Judas betrayed Christ, as we all do when we take a story as true, and get caught up in fears and beliefs. Judas is each one of us. As is Christ and anything else.

Peter denied Christ three times before sunrise, and that’s the same.

Face of God

But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.”
Exodus 33:20

We cannot come face-to-face with God and live. Our identifications cannot live. When reality recognizes itself, the familiar me and I cannot survive. They are recognized as what they are – stories identified with creating the appearance of being a me and I – and they are burnt through. Of course, they may re-emerge, but even then, they are not completely believed in anymore.

Christ

Christ can be seen as a metaphor of (a) the wholeness of the human self, or (b) Big Mind/Heart/Belly. But in immediate experience, Christ has a unique quality – a fierly engaged love in the heart area and top of the head – visible in the energy system very much like a flame.

All of this is of course just one way of looking at it, and it reflects what’s going on for me now.

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