Underlying beliefs

 

Dredging up some underlying beliefs….

If I allow experience….

I’ll die.

I can’t take it.

I’ll explode.

–> I’ll meet the truth and I won’t survive.

It will be too much.

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I should go into victim mode, feel sorry for myself, because it will….

Bring me to my knees.

Help me peel off beliefs and falsity.

Help me get rid of beliefs.

–> It will help me get to rock bottom.

I need to get to rock bottom.

I need to be brought to my knees.

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Death is wrong – why….?

I am entitled to life.

I won’t be anymore.

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Death is….

Death is terrible.

Death means something terrible has happened.

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I need to resist….

I need to resist death of all my might.

I need to resist experience of all my might.

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If I don’t resist…..

Something terrible will happen.

I will die.

I won’t be anymore.

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I need to pretend…..

I need to pretend I am caught up in stories.

I need to pretend I absolutely have to resist.

I need to pretend something terrible will happen if I am not caught up in stories, resistance.

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I need to pretend, because….

It will keep the drama going.

I will get something out of it.

I will learn from it.

I get to experience how it is when the drama gets extreme.

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I need to keep the drama going, because….

–> It’s good for me.

It will give me something important.

It will help me understand drama from the inside.

It makes me the same as everyone else.

–> It will help me see through and release the dynamics of delusion.

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Keeping the drama going helps me release the dynamics of delusion, because….

It helps me see to the core.

It brings me to see I cannot do it on my own.

It brings me to my wits end.

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I need to be brought to my wits end, because….

It helps me surrender.

It helps me see I cannot do it on my own.

–> It helps me see it’s all God’s will – including what appeared as “my will”.

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Additional beliefs

Drama will help me recognize it’s all God’s will.

Drama will help me surrender.

–> Drama will bring me where I want to go.

–> Drama is my friend.

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Essential beliefs

Death is terrible.

If I don’t resist experience, I’ll die.

Something terrible will happen if I don’t resist experience.

Drama brings me where I want to go.

Drama helps me surrender.

Drama is good for me.

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They are each other’s evidence.

I see that these core beliefs are circular.

They are each other’s evidence.

They have to be since there isn’t anything else that could prop them up.

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