Judgment day

 

Tomorrow is judgment day according to some Christians.

It can be very simple.

What do I see out there in the future? Do I see the end of the world, or of it continuing much as before?

What do I see in these folks? Do I see someone who agree with me, or a bunch of nut cases?

Where do I find the future? Can I find it outside of my images of a future? Where do I find these folks? Do I find them outside of my images of them?

Where do I find judgment day? Can I find it outside of my images of judgment day? Where do I find the judgment I envision? I find it every time I take a story as true. With that comes stories of right and wrong, better and worse, and I apply that to myself, others and the world.

Where do I find the end of the world? Can I find it outside of my images of the end of the world? Where do I find the end I envision? I find it here, when I compare my images of the past – even the very recent past, with my images of the present, I see that the world died as what it was and is reborn as something else. My world is gone almost before it existed.

Where do I find what I see in these folks? I see someone who believe their story about the future, and think, feel and act as if it’s true. I sometimes do the same. I find I even do it now, to some extent. I envision that the world will continue much as before, take that story as true, and use it to think I know what will happen.

I also imagine they do this to try to find a sense of safety. They experience fear, believe their stories about fear (it’s bad, too much etc.) and their stories behind the fear (something terrible may happen), so take refuge in stories to try to find a sense of safety. I do that too. And I find that it gives me just what I tried to avoid. I create stress, unease, a viewpoint to defend etc. for myself.

The same can be interesting to explore in relation to the 2012 folks. What do I imagine they think will happen? Can I find it here now? What do I see in them? Can I find that too here?

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The end of the world is here. My world ends – it dies and is reborn as something different – continually. It’s ephemeral, going out of existence almost before anything happens. Also, I find that my stories and images of beginnings and ends of anything happen right here.

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And my images of the past, even the very recent past, tells me that the world ends continually here now. It’s gone even before really coming into existence. Something appears in the sense fields and is gone right away.

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In general, I find that my stories of the existence of past, future and present are here, as are the stories I place on those three times. This is the only moment that ever happened. This Now is what everything happens within, including anything I tell myself happened in the past, anything that will happen, or anything happening “now” – which, by the time there is a story about it, is already in the past.

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Where do I find what I see in these folks? I see someone who believe their story about the future, and think, feel and act as if it’s true. I sometimes do the same. I find I even do it now, to some extent. I envision that the world will continue much as before, take that story as true, and use it to think I know what will happen. I even use it to think I am right while they are not, I know while they don’t. I pretend I know, I pretend I am right, while the reality is I don’t know and cannot know.

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initial draft….

Tomorrow is judgment day according to some Christians.

For me, judgment day is every day I believe a story. As soon as I do, I get caught up in stories of right & wrong and better & worse as if they were absolutely true.

It’s easy to make fun of these Christians. After all, different groups of Christians have thought judgment day was just around the corner for about 2000 years, and each time they are equally sure they are right, each time it doesn’t happen, and each time they have good reasons why it didn’t happen.

This is of course the same with the 2012 new age folks. They believe something will happen, and if life just continues as before, they’ll have lots of good reasons why it didn’t happen. It did happen, most people just didn’t notice. Or it didn’t happen because too many were skeptics. Or it will happen a bit later. Or they cherry pick to provide evidence that it did happen, even if those things are routine and happen all the time. (For instance, some folks may think that more people are awakening, while it may just appear that way to them because they seek out those types of people,  and we are more aware of these folks because of the internet and a relatively recent cultural acceptance of these things.)

So where am I doing the same? As usual, I find I do the same as soon as I believe a thought. I project it into the future and make it seem very real for myself. I pick evidence to support it and overlook other explanations and data that doesn’t fit. I find explanations if it doesn’t pan out.

I even do it right now. I expect nothing special to happen tomorrow. In reality, I don’t know. I cannot know. It’s just an idea that I place on an idea of tomorrow, and I take it to be true. I also cannot know about 2012. The fact is that my experience does fit what the 2012 folks say, but I cannot know if it’s related or what it means. Here too, I have a thought of 2012 as a year as most other years before and after, I place it on my idea of next year, and take it as true.

It allows me to think I know what will happen. I pretend it makes me safer – which it doesn’t since I know I only pretend. It allows me to think I know and they don’t. It allows me to think I am somehow better than them. All of it is uncomfortable, all of it is just pretending, and none of it is really true.

They are a mirror for me. Whatever I see there is right here in this moment, even in my thoughts about them. We are in the same boat.

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second draft….

Tomorrow is judgment day according to some Christians.

Where do I find judgment day?

I see that judgment day is whenever I believe a story. As soon as I do, I get caught up in stories of right & wrong and better & worse as if they were absolutely true. And these stories are inevitably applied to myself, others and the world.

Where do I find the end of the world?

The end of the world is here. I cannot find the future anywhere else than in my images of it. And my world continually dies and is reborn as something else, it’s ephemeral.

In general, I cannot find the past, future or present outside of my stories about it, and these stories and images happen here. This is the only moment that ever happened. This Now is what everything happens within, including anything I tell myself happened in the past, anything that will happen, or anything happening “now” – which, by the time there is a story about it, is already in the past.

And where do I find what I see in these folks?

They think they know something about the future. They believe their own stories about the future, and think, feel and act as if these stories are true. I sometimes do the same. I even do the same now. They say the world will end tomorrow, and I think I know it will continue. Both are assumptions about the future. The reality is that I don’t know. I cannot know. My thoughts may tell me something will or won’t happen, I may have a great deal of evidence, the whole world may agree with me, but I still don’t know. These folks are a mirror for me, reminding me of what’s already here.

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