What I resist is the gateway?
What I resist is the gateway.
What do I find when I use this as a question, a pointer for own exploration?
I resist an emotion, and when I allow and meet that emotion, I find relief, an open heart, a sense of coming home, flexibility in relating to situations. I find what I really seek.
I resist a thought, and it’s the same there. When I identify and inquire into that thought, I find resolution, creativity, kindness, a sense of coming home. I find what I really seek.
So what I resist is the gateway.
And really, something else seems more true:
The thought behind – creating – the resistance is the gateway.
Resistance comes from a thought, whatever the resistance is against – an emotion, pain, hunger, loss, a memory etc.
When I identify and inquire into that thought, I find resolution, kindness, creativity. What I really seek.
So the thought behind resistance is the gateway.
And that is a new question, a new pointer for exploration.
I also see another thoughts surface: I know.
What happens when I take that thought as true? Who would I be if I couldn’t think that thought? What’s the genuine truth in it’s turnarounds? How is it to live from the most juicy of those turnarounds?
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What I resist is the gateway.
Is that really true?
It may seem that way.
I resist an emotion, and the gateway into what I really seek – relief, an open heart, a sense of coming home, flexibility in relating to situations – is allowing and meeting that emotion.
I resist a thought, and it’s the same there. What I really seek is found when I identify and inquire into that thought.
And yet, what’s more true for me now is that the thought behind resistance is the gateway.
Resistance comes from a thought, whatever the resistance is against – an emotion, pain, hunger, loss, a memory etc.
When I identify and inquiry into that thought, I find what I really seek.
So the thought behind resistance is the gateway.
It’s not really helpful to write about it in such a general way.
It’s even a side track. It becomes another way to think I know something, a way of surfing over a more sincere and open inquiry.
So then that thought – the belief behind resistance is the gateway, and also I know – becomes stressful for me.
It’s good to notice.
There is no way out here. Any thought – when I attach to it as true – creates unease. I know – I feel – it’s not true. I feel how it creates a sense of separation.
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What I resist is the gateway.
I resist an emotion.
I resist it because of a belief I have about it.
The emotion (fear, sadness, anger) is unpleasant. It’s a reminder of something unpleasant. It means…. something terrible has happened/will happen. It’s too much. It’s not what I want.
When I resist the emotion, it becomes an enemy, a problem. There is struggle and unease just in the resistance.
The gateway is then that emotion. When there is a shift into allowing it, there is relief, release, a sense of coming home. When I identify and inquire into the beliefs about the emotion (the beliefs creating the resistance), there is similarly a relief, release and sense of coming home.
I resist a situation because I have a belief about it. And the dynamics are similar.
So resistance comes from a thought taken as true, and that thought may itself be resisted.
When I take a thought as true, it is at once fascinating and uncomfortable. I am drawn to it, and also – often – resist it.
I want to avoid it, not be reminded about it. So I avoid whatever may remind me about it.
Again, this thought is the gateway. When I identify and question it, I find what I sought by taking it as true.
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What do I resist?
Emotions, thoughts, pain.
Situations triggering those same emotions, thoughts and pain.
(And going a step further, I see I resist reality. I resist what is. I resist acknowledging what is already true for me.)
What do I seek when I resist?
I seek comfort, ease, happiness etc.
What do I get?
Unease. Struggle. Sense of precariousness.
What happens if I allow what is?
When I allow (meet, welcome) emotions, there is a sense of wholeness, fullness. Relief. A sense of coming home.
When I meet pain, I see it’s not really pain. It’s a sensation. It’s spacious. It’s OK.
When I meet thoughts, I find what’s more true for me. Here too, there is a sense of relief, coming home.
Gateway
I see that what I resist is really the gateway into what I seek.
It’s a gateway into recognizing the world as a friendly place.
What I resist shows me what’s left – what I still haven’t (a) befriended and (b) recognized as part of the whole & what I am.
What’s resisted is already what I am. It is all already love. So of course it is uncomfortable to resist it. It goes against my nature.And that discomfort is a pointer that something is off. It’s an invitation to explore what’s going on. See what happens when there is resistance vs. meeting, allowing, befriending whatever is here.
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