Hypersensitivity and thoughts

 

I read about hypersensitivity in connection with kundalini awakening (El Collie), and it was an inspiration for me to explore it a bit further for myself.

When I have heightened sensitivity to, for instance, noise and people struggling with themselves (and trying to put a lid on it), what’s really going on? Is it just physiology combined with triggers in the wider world?

What I find is that my thoughts create this heightened sensitivity (and any sensitivity or responses).

For instance, I experienced anger directed towards me as a knife in my chest or stomach. By inquiring into the thought “she is angry at me” I find – among other things – that what’s more true for me is that she is scared. With one story, I feel hurt and defensive. I feel highly sensitive to the anger. With the other, there is compassion for her and myself. There is space to contain what’s happening.

Some other examples:

She is at war with herself –> She is confused. I am at war with her. What’s more true is that she is scared and confused, as I know from myself. We are the same there. And I am at war with her when I believe the initial thought. From blame and reactivity, there is empathy and freedom to relate to her in a friendly way, and freedom to stay or leave.

It’s noisy –> It’s sound. My thinking is noisy. With one, I am reactive and stuck. With the other, I see what’s going on here. I am free to speak up or not, free to leave or not.

So with the initial belief, there is reactivity and – sometimes – heightened sensitivity or hypersensitivity. When I allow what I discover through inquiry to sink in, there is an open heart. There is space for what’s happening. I take care of myself.

Note: I took some shortcuts in describing these examples. In the first one, it went from “She is angry” to “She is not angry” – and realizing I don’t know what’s going on for her, and that she may just be scared. When I seem angry, I know that what’s more true for me is that I am scared and confused – and unable to allow space for it.

Note 2: Doing “inquiry” at the mental level is not going to do much. If it’s instead done as a meditation, and on a specific situation, it has the potential to go much deeper – to reorganize at all levels, aligning it all more with truth.

Note 3: I discovered from own experience that the experience of hunger and tiredness is created through believing thoughts (although something is going on with the body in consensus reality). I suspect the same is the case for the experience of physical pain, although I haven’t explored that as much. And sensitivity to noise and the “energy” of people and places is most likely the same. The experience of it is created through taking certain thoughts as true. Hunger is not hunger. Tiredness is not tiredness. Pain is not pain. Bad energy is not bad energy. My world is created through my thinking. And I’ll still eat, sleep, take pain medication, and perhaps even leave certain places and situations.

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This room has bad energy.

(I initially had that thought about where I am now, mostly at night time.)

Is it true?

Yes.

Can I know for certain it’s true.

No.

What happens, how do I react, when I have that thought?

I don’t want to be here.

I feel trapped. I tell myself it’s my only option right now, and yet it has bad energy, so I feel trapped.

I tell myself it will harm me. I won’t sleep because of it. It will poison me.

I feel distressed. Agitated.

I have trouble sleeping.

Whenever I can’t sleep or feel “off” I wonder if it is because of the room.

I make myself into a victim.

I blame whomever or whatever is responsible for the bad energy.

I blame the person or people who was there before me.

Who would I be without that thought?

Noticing what’s here. Curious about it.

Curious about how my experience is created through my thinking.

Interested in exploring.

Sincerity in investigating.

Turnarounds

This room doesn’t have bad energy.

1. I don’t know. It’s just my interpretation, just my story about it.

2. Is there such a thing as bad energy? I don’t know. That too is just a label.

3. What’s here is only my own mind. I can’t experience “the room”.

Any image of this room is in and created by my mind.

Any characteristics of this room is in and created by my mind.

My thinking has bad energy.

1. Yes, it’s happening in my thinking. That’s where the story of a room and it’s energy happens.

Any image of a room “out there” with a certain energy is all my images.

2. When the thought “this room has bad energy” is taken as true, my mind has to make it appear true.

It has to create the experience of it as true.

It has to find evidence.

3. Taking the story as true creates agitation, unease, a sense of being a victim, lack of sleep, blame.

All of that is “bad energy”.

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– (a) sensitivity, from thoughts
– (b) heightened sensitivity (from pain, illness, any extreme situation), beliefs surface (more easily triggered), an opportunity to identify + inquire

– hypersensitivity – often to noise, people with internal struggle/at war with themselves etc.
– yet, is really hypersensitivity to my thoughts about noise, people etc.
– for instance, “she is angry” triggers a reaction, but “she is afraid/scared” triggers compassion – same situation, different stories – and one is far more true for me
– hypersensitivity, from pain etc., makes those thoughts more visible, come to the surface
– in more extreme situations generally, get to see your own stressful thoughts more clearly, surface

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I believe “she is angry” and react with feeling hurt, with defensiveness, with attack. Through inquiry, I find “she is afraid” and respond with compassion for her and me. It’s the same situation, yet different stories, and one is more true for me – and kinder as well.

I believe “they are inconsiderate” and react with feeling like a victim. I find “they are having fun”, enjoy it, and am free to take care of myself. I speak up or not, I stay or leave.

I believe “it’s noise” and feel invaded. I find “it’s not noise” – with specific and real examples – and it’s just sound washing through me, and, again, I am free to speak up or not, and stay or leave.

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Many people experience hypersensitivity, either throughout their lives or in certain phases.

Usually, we talk about hypersensitivity to noise, people at war with themselves, and so on – something out there in the world.

And yet, from my own experience it seems that hypersensitivity is really from my thoughts about noise, people and so on.

I believe “she is angry” and react with feeling hurt, with defensiveness, with attack. Through inquiry, I find “she is afraid” and respond with compassion for her and me. It’s the same situation, yet different stories, and one is more true for me – and kinder as well.

I believe “they are inconsiderate” and react with feeling like a victim. I find “they are having fun”, enjoy it, and am free to take care of myself. I speak up or not, I stay or leave.

I believe “it’s noise” and feel invaded. I find “it’s not noise” – with specific and real examples – and it’s just sound washing through me, and, again, I am free to speak up or not, and stay or leave.

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