Childhood wounds

 

Childhood wounds seems to surface now, perhaps as part of a natural process, or perhaps also invited up through inquiry or TRE.

Some thoughts related to these childhood wounds:

Nobody loves me. Nobody is here for me. The world is not a safe place.

Something is wrong with me. I am flawed. I am unlovable. I am alone.

Everyone gets it but I don’t.

Then there is the incarnation wound, whether it’s taken literally or symbolically.

I don’t want to be here.

The universe made a mistake by letting me be born.

I need to show the universe it made a mistake.

When I inquire into one of these thoughts, it’s good to find a specific situation where it came up, and then answer from that situation. It makes it more real and what comes up may be more surprising.

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I don’t want to be here.

(When I had kidney stone pain.)

True?

No.

What happens, how do you react, when you have that thought?

I resist what’s happening. I want to not be here.

I feel like a victim. Unfairly treated.

I didn’t ask to be here, and now this happens.

Anger. Resentment. Hurt.

Who would you be without the thought?

Here. Being the experience.

Turnarounds

I do want to be here.

1. This pain is part of life, part of a human life.

2. It won’t last.

3. The pain may show me something – about me, about itself.

4. It’s what’s happening.

I don’t want to be there.

1. The only “there” for me is imagination.

2. This is what life brings up for me.

3. I want to see what’s left for me (beliefs, unquestioned thoughts).

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Note:

As I started this inquiry and went into the memory of the kidney stone pain, my body had an urge to shake.

I got up, stood against a wall, and shook vigorously for a few minutes.

It really felt like shaking off a good deal of the trauma/stress from that experience.

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