What came up for me here is any confusion around my spiritual path being about ‘improving’ or ‘bettering’ myself so that I only think ‘perfect’ thoughts or behave perfectly (whatever that may be!). This is a clear example of the war within myself, and how I may take myself overly seriously.
– S.F. posting in the forum for the telecourse on turnarounds
I find it helpful to look at my motivations for being on a “spiritual path”.
Partly, it may be an innocent seeking for clarity, peace and returning home. And there may also be a set of equally innocent beliefs here.
This is not home. I don’t feel at home here. I need to feel at home. It’s better to feel at home.
I need to be perfect. Perfection is possible. It’s better to be good.
I can improve myself. I need to improve myself. I need to better myself.
I am not enough as I am. This is not enough. What’s here is not enough.
Clarity is better than confusion. Awakening is better than staying confused.
What I seek is out there (in others, past/future).