I am a nuisance.
Situation: I was the official wedding photographer this weekend, and sometimes noticed this thought as I wandered around taking pictures of the bride, groom and guests.
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Is it true?
Can you be certain it’s true?
What happens, how do you react, when you have that belief?
I try to appear at ease, while I experience tension and discomfort.
There is a conflict between wanting to do my job and take good photos, and wanting to not be a nuisance.
I get to see another belief: I want *all* of them to like me.
I feel and act shy. I hold back in my interactions with others. I am self-conscious.
My breath is not as free as before.
My calf muscles and shoulders tense up.
I try to stay as invisible as possible.
Who would you be without that thought?
Free to take photos when I think they will be good and of interest to the bride, groom and others.
Free to be social and engaged in conversation and exchanges with others.
I may take fewer photos, because I am free to go for the really good ones.
I am blessing.
I am assigned this task so others don’t need to.
I generally take photos people enjoy.
One guest commented on how gentle and pleasant I was in taking photos.
Another guest commented on how much joy it would give people to later look at these photos.
I am not a nuisance.
Nobody said I was.
Nobody gave a look or used body language that I could interpret that way (even with the mindset created from the initial belief).
When I mentioned the initial thought to a friend, she laughed and said it was clearly not true in her experience.
My thinking is a nuisance.
When the initial thought is believed, it becomes a nuisance.
I can only find “nuisance” in my thinking. It’s not there in the situation.
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