Supported by states, independent of states

 

As life brings itself more into awareness, shedding beliefs and assumptions and revealing to itself what’s here, it seems to often go through certain phases. Many have outlined these, including Evelyn Underhill and Ken Wilber, and I am by no means an expert on these maps and models. (In any case, life is kind enough to show up outside of and independent of any maps, reminding us they are imagined.)

What I know from my own experience, and have heard from others, is a simple shift from (a) knowing to being, and from (b) love and insight supported by certain states to independent of states.

From knowing to being

During the initial opening in my teens, there was a clear recognition that everything – with no exception – is God. God – life, reality – woke up to itself out of the dream of being identified as a human being. The sense of I did return to some extent, and the identification with/as this I also returned to some extent, although even here there was a recognition that all is God or Spirit. Then, there was (is!) a dark night which invited remaining beliefs to wear out and be seen through, and these tend to be quite primal and deep seated beliefs with a strong emotional component. The shift to being what was initially seen involves a deep healing at a human level, a clearing up of these primal beliefs and their emotional components, and alignment of more of the human self with reality, with what was initially seen.This is an ongoing process, and I assume it will continue as long as there is a human self here.

From supported by states to independent of states

Initially, love and insight was supported by certain states. There was a very strong experience and feeling of love – for everyone and everything. And there was a clarity which allowed for a great deal of insights, typically mirroring what I later read by Taoists, Buddhists and mystics from Islam and Christianity. These states were so strong it seemed “I” couldn’t fall out of love or this clarity. Then, during the dark night, these states did shift – as life always does. They went away in my experience, and there was an invitation to see my remaining beliefs about these states and reality. There were a few basic sets of beliefs here for me: (a) I lost something wonderful. I made a mistake. I lost my course. I got off track. I am a disappointment to God. (b) Awakening has to do with these states of love and clarity. (c) There is an I here this is happening to. (Although this was seen through initially, there was still a more deep seated belief in an I here and this one had/has a quite strong emotional component.) Another invitation is to recognize this love and clarity in any situation and state. This is the next phase. Can I recognize anyone and anything as the Divine, just as it is, independent of particular states? Can I notice this clarity – specifically that it’s all the Divine, the play of life – no matter what’s here, independent of particular states?

Summary

So, in summary, there may be a shift from knowing to being. The knowing includes seeing all as God and living it to some extent, perhaps with some remaining identification as an I and with (sometimes quite significant) areas of the human self (wounds, hurt) not yet aligned with reality. The being includes a further release of identification as an I, creating space for life to recognize itself, and more of this human self consciously aligned with reality (healing, realigning, examining remaining beliefs more in detail).

And there may be a shift from love and clarity supported by states, to love and clarity recognizing itself throughout any states and independent of any particular states. How is it to recognize anyone and anything as love, independent of states? How is it to recognize clarity, that it’s all the play of the Divine or life, in the midst of any experience?

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initial notes

love
– notice all as love, act from love etc.
— (a) feeling of love
— (b) independent of any feelings, any states

insight
– notice all as the Divine, live from it etc. (identification released out of images of i/me)
— (a) supported by states where this is very clear, in the foreground
— (b) independent of states

may go from (a) supported by states to (b) independent of states
– and may go through a dark night between (a) and (b
– (i) loss of the states
– (ii) question basic assumptions (about life, the divine, oneself)
– (iii) shadow surfacing to be seen, felt, loved – recognized and felt as the divine, as Christ

 

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