A simple process

 

It’s early morning.

I lie in bed with my eyes closed.

A world of images

Images of space

I notice my images – of the body, the room, the building, the area outside of the building, the city, the continent, the Earth, the solar system, the galaxy, the universe.

It’s all images. I cannot find it outside of images.

I notice sensations in my body, and how my images adjust to fit these.

Images of time

I notice images of this coming day – having breakfast, going for a walk, meditation, swimming in the afternoon.

I notice images of yesterday – watching a film, working on some photos, eating, going shopping.

I notice images of the coming weeks, my life in the future.

I notice images of the preceding weeks, months, years, decades, my past.

I notice I cannot find any of this outside of these images.

Images of space & time

I notice that my images of things in space is placed on an image of space itself.

I notice how my images of episodes in time is placed on an image of time itself, and of an image of future, past and present.

Density & Identification

I notice how some images seem more dense, real and substantial.

The image of my body seem more dense.

The image of episodes important to me seem more dense.

These seem more close to who or what I am.

Observer, thinker, doer

I return to noticing the image of my body, of me.

I notice there are also images of an observer, thinker, chooser, doer – an I.

These are located in and around my head.

There is an image of a control center associated with these.

It too seem more dense, more who or what I am.

I notice sensations in my head area – especially back at the top of the roof, associated with these images.

These sensations anchor these images of an observer, thinker, doer in space, and lend them a sense of substance, reality, density.

I notice how these images shift and how their location shifts, although staying in and around the head area.

Centers

I notice centers in my images.

The head is one center.

It feels a bit denser, closer to who or what I am.

The heart is another.

The belly another.

My feet another.

Then, a bit fainter, my joints.

Fear & Belief I

A neighbor stomps upstairs.

I notice a slight reaction.

I bring attention to the fear behind it.

I open to the fear, stay with it as a friend.

What does the fear say? What’s the fear about?

It says I will find no peace.

Is there something behind that?

I will lose myself.

It feels very young, perhaps a belief formed very early in childhood.

I notice the contraction around it.

Is it true, I will find no peace?

I notice it’s not true, and stay with it.

The contraction – the fear and belief – seems to gradually reorganize, realign.

I stay with it for a while, allowing it to reorganize and realign.

Is it true, I will lose myself?

I cannot know it’s true.

Is it true, it’s a bad thing if I lose myself?

I cannot know that’s true either.

I stay with the fear and seeing I can’t know.

Again, the contraction – the fear and belief – seems to soften, realign, reorganize.

It’s as if it’s a meeting of someone very young – the fear and belief, and something a bit older and wiser.

Fear & Belief II

I bring attention to the control center – to the images of an observer, thinker, doer.

I notice sensations in my head area and the images of an observer, thinker, chooser, doer combining.

I notice it seems slightly more dense than other areas.

More close to who or what I am.

I notice a fear behind it – the sense of density, of it being closer to who or what I am.

I stay with the fear.

What does the fear say?

You can’t function without it.

You can’t function in the world, without the density around the sense of a doer, chooser, thinker, observer.

You can’t function in the world without taking this as who or what you are.

Is it true, I won’t function?

I notice it’s not true.

I know from experience it’s not true.

The times it’s not here, this human self has functioned very well in the world.

I stay with the fear, the belief, and remembering it’s not true.

Inviting the contraction – the fear and belief – to reorganize, realign.

Again, it’s as if it’s a meeting between something very young, and something older and wiser.

A simple process

I notice how much I enjoy this simple process.

Lie with my eyes closed.

Notice the images of my body, the bed, the room, the building etc.

Notice my image of space itself, on top of which the images of objects in space is placed.

Notice my images of this coming day, the previous day, of episodes further into the future and past.

Notice my image of time itself, as a continuum, and of future, past and present, and how my images of episodes are placed on these images of time.

Can I find space outside of my image of space?

When I have an image of an object, can I find this object outside of my image?

Can I find time outside of my image of time?

When I have an image of an episode, can I find this episode outside of my image?

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What seems more dense?

The body?

The head area? Images of a doer, thinker, observer?

Is that what I take more closely to be who or what I am?

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I bring attention to a reaction – a fear, contraction.

Perhaps something I remember from the past, or a fear about the future.

What is it about?

I bring attention to the sensations and the fear.

I am staying with it for a while, as a friend.

What does the fear say? What’s the fear about?

I stay with it, and ask myself is it true?

I stay with the fear, noticing the answer that surfaces.

I notice the contraction – the fear and belief – may reorganize, realign.

I stay with it for a while.

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What appears the most dense in my world of images?

My body? The head area? Defining or important episodes?

Is that what seems more closely who or what I am?

Bring attention to one.

What are the sensations? Stay with these for a bit.

What are the images?

Is there a fear behind it?

What does the fear say? What’s the fear about?

Is it true?

Stay with the contraction, and the answer that comes up.

Allow the contract to realign, reorganize.

Stay with it as a friend.

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One thought to “A simple process”

  1. What a great practice, I noticed effects from it just reading your post. Thanks for sharing this in all it’s details.

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