It’s better if I control my evolution.
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Is it true?
What happens, how do you react, when you have that belief?
I feel a need to control my evolution.
I try to find strategies to control my evolution.
I do inquiry with the aim of moving ahead further, clearing up obstacles.
There is a sense of pushing.
I compare myself with images of where I thought I would be, and were I imagine others are.
I am impatient, even feel a bit desperate.
I try to control, and realize I cannot.
I feel hopeless, tired, exhausted.
There is a sense of struggle.
Who would you be without that thought?
I trust that what’s here is OK.
Peace with what is.
It’s better if I control me.
It’s better if I identify and inquire into my own beliefs, especially about my own evolution.
(It’s more peaceful. It’s my business. It’s what I can do.)
It’s better if my evolution controls me.
It does already, so it’s better if I notice and join.
I can try to “pretend myself beyond my evolution” but it doesn’t really work.
When I “pretend myself beyond my evolution”, I miss out of what’s really here.
Evolution – life, the universe, Spirit – may be more wise than I am.
It’s worse if I control my evolution.
If I try to control my evolution, I create frustration for myself.
I cannot know what’s next in my evolution. If I did, it would be because it’s already here.
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I can control my evolution.
I want to control my evolution.
I should be further ahead.
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