Peter L. is a drama queen.
Situation: I am reading In an Unspoken Voice: How the Body Releases Trauma and Restores Goodness by Peter Levine, and often see that thought surface – especially when he talks about something being terrible, a disaster and so on.)
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Is it true?
Can you be certain it’s true?
What happens, how do you react, when you have that thought?
I see him as a drama queen.
I tell myself he believes his thoughts, and am surprised he is not more clear.
I look for signs in his writings to support this thought – words such as disaster, terrible and so on.
I am agitated that he – as a therapist, teacher – have not done his homework in terms of inquiring into his thoughts.
I more easily dismiss what he writes, even if it otherwise aligns with my views and experiences.
I don’t really want to read his book.
There is tension, stress, unease.
I see myself as better than him, and know I am caught up in a belief.
Who would you be without that thought?
Curious about what he writes, what I can learn from it.
P.L. is not a drama queen.
It’s a thought, not what’s actually there.
In much of what he writes, I see no trace of it.
P.L. is sober.
In most of what he writes, he seems sober.
He is just reporting his experience
(even in the cases I tell myself he is a drama queen).
I am a drama queen.
When I believe he is a drama queen, in how I see him.
I create a dramatic image of him in my mind. I feel agitated. Caught up in emotion. I feel reactive. I dismiss what he writes and him as a person. It’s all quite dramatic.
I am a drama queen whenever I take a thought as true. I make it into a drama for myself.
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He believes his thoughts. ***
He – as a therapist, teacher – should be more clear. ***
It’s irresponsible of him to be a therapist, teacher and not be more clear. ***
He – as a therapist, teacher – should be as clear as Adyashanti, Byron Katie. ***
It’s unhelpful for his clients, students when he is not more clear. **
I am more clear than Peter L. ***
I should receive recognition for my insights.***
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