When we’re sick, we want people to be kind to us. And yet we’re not being kind to ourselves, because we’re lying in bed with an enemy; our disease. Until we’re at peace with our worst enemy, which always is our thinking, we can’t love our beloved partner or our precious child. Sooner or later, everything we think about our disease will have to be attached to our partner or our child when we don’t get our way or when we think we’re going to lose something. We don’t resist our diseases; we resist our thoughts about them. Without our story, we can’t have a problem. We can only have a solution.
– Byron Katie, p. 53 in Question Your Thinking, Change The World
I see I post a lot of quotes by Byron Katie here. It’s not because I think others need to read them – there are not that many readers of this blog anyway. It’s for my own sake, as a reminder, a question, something to explore.
These days, I notice how behind reaction is a hurt, and a fear, and a belief. And many situations can trigger that reaction, hurt, fear and belief. It’s not about the world, it’s about me.
Off and on these last few weeks, I have for instance noticed an undercurrent of annoyance (anger). The annoyance is here, and my mind sometimes looks for something to put it on and it doesn’t matter so much what it is. I assume this annoyance is from an old wound, perhaps a belief formed very early in life, and it’s surfacing now. (I imagine it’s surfacing because of the dark night, the shaking (TRE), the natural healing processes of the body-mind, the thought triggering it “wishing” for liberation from being taken as true, or just life wishing to align more closely with reality and function from that in me – in this individual expression of life. And it doesn’t really matter.)