Fear before a session

 

I often notice fear one or two hours before my sessions with Barry, and I see my mind trying to find an excuse to cancel. I haven’t so far, and have always been very grateful for the sessions. They tend to go deep and bring resolution, or at least bring up something that I can work on to find clarity and a sense of (relative) resolution.

Right now, I notice a similar fear coming up around going to The School with Byron Katie in Los Angeles in October. I am not quite sure what it’s about, but it may be a similar dynamic. It feels right to go, and will probably be very grateful if I go.

What is this fear about? What’s the story behind this fear?

What I fear the most about a session with Barry is….

It will be uncomfortable. I will have to face something uncomfortable.

It will bring changes to my life. It will lead to uncomfortable changes in my life.

It will require too much of me. I am not up to the task. (Of bringing it into life, live from it.)

What I fear the most about The School is….

I won’t be able to do my job well. (As staff.) They will judge me. I will make a fool of myself.

I will see something I don’t want to see. I will have to face beliefs I don’t want to face.

It will require big changes in my life. It will require uncomfortable changes in my life.

I won’t be able to bring it into life/live it. I will be paralyzed by fear/beliefs when I try to live it.

I am not up to the task.

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