I can do it later.
Situation: Being with what’s here.
(Welcoming my experience – the discomfort, unease, fear – as a friend, a lover.)
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Is it true?
Can you be certain it’s true?
What happens, how do you react, when you have that belief?
I tell myself I can do it later.
I distract myself, do something else.
I create a habit of leaving what’s here, and distract myself.
I use anything as a distraction – internet, news, videos, podcasts, a magazine, a project, talking with friends, going for a walk, doing something on my “to do” list, taking a nap, eating, talking about being with what’s here or inquiry instead of doing it.
I experience unease.
My body feels jittery.
I want to do it later. I see it as easier to do it later. I think I need to be in another frame of mind, so I’ll wait and do it later.
I treat what’s here – the experience – as too hot to handle. I avoid it. Touch it briefly and then do something else. I avoid it as the plague.
I reinforce my fears about welcoming what’s here.
I reinforce my beliefs about why it’s better, or easier, to avoid what’s here.
Who would you be without that thought?
I am open to being with it now.
I am with it now.
I fall into being with it now.
I can’t do it later.
What’s here now is here now, not later. It will be gone. Something else will be here instead.
“Later” is only in my images of time, a future. I can’t find it anywhere else.
If I avoid it now, I train myself to avoid it, I deepen the habit of avoiding it. It makes it less likely I will do it later.
I can do it now.
If I want to be with what’s here, now is the only option.
When I do it now, it’s different from my images and fears about it.
I can’t find any reason not to do it now, apart from my thoughts and fears about it. (Taking these as true, getting caught up in them.)
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