Primary relationship

 

My primary relationship is with myself.

It’s already that way, both in a conventional and a more real sense.

In a conventional sense, what I take as me – this human self, this doer, this observer – is what’s here more than anyone or anything else. I am the one I am living with, now and now and now, at least until the end of this human life.

And looking closer, I see that any relationship is with myself. It’s an image of a relationship between two images, and all of those happen within my world of images, they happen within and as what I am. My world of images happen within and as what I am, and what these refer to happens within and as what I am.

If it’s already that way, why wouldn’t it be that way consciously, wholeheartedly, authentically? What prevents it?

What am I afraid would happen if my primary relationship is with myself? What am I afraid to lose? What am I afraid I won’t get?

Others will be offended. They will feel rejected. They will judge me. They will see me as arrogant, self-centered, setting myself first.

I won’t do what’s needed for them to love me, accept me, want to be with me.

And behind that:

Others will reject me because…. they see me as arrogant, self-centered, I won’t do what’s needed for them to like me. Others will reject me, and that means…. I will be alone. I will suffer. My life will be in ruins. My life will go into a downward spiral. I will die alone.

I need them to love me, accept me, want to be with me.

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– primary relationship, with myself – is already that way, so why wouldn’t it be that way consciously, wholeheartedly, authentically?
– why would it not be? what prevents it?
– what am i afraid would happen if my primary relationship is with myself? (what am i afraid to lose? what am i afraid i won’t get?)

 

 

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