I notice that when thoughts tell me others will judge me for my fatigue, I feel tired, sometimes very tired.
And if I think others accept my fatigue completely, even value it, then I tend to feel energetic.
Of course, I am the one doing it all. Mind identifies with thoughts about these other people, what it means, and so on. And that brings about heaviness, separation and fatigue, or a sense of acceptance, connection and energy.
Some thoughts I notice:
She judges me for the fatigue. She won’t like me. She won’t want to be with me. She will leave me.
He thinks I am lazy. He sees me as second rate. He pities me. He dismisses me.
And some more (when I do inquiry, I can find a situation where I projected these onto others):
Fatigue is my fault. I am responsible. I should be over it.
Fatigue means…. I am lazy, my life is worth less, I am unable to contribute, I won’t have the life I want, I can’t do what I want.
I have fatigue because…. life is punishing me, God wants to teach me something, I am not getting the lesson.
It’s fatigue. It’s tiredness.