Healing my relationship with what’s here

 

I’ll make this simple too:

It seems I have been gifted with the ability to identify – at least to some extent – what’s going on for another, and also invite in resolution and healing. And I haven’t used it much, other than in emergencies, because it’s always felt a bit off. And the reason it’s felt a bit off is quite simple: Who am I to say that what I see as healing and resolution is better than what’s here? Who am I to say it’s better than what we call pain, discomfort, illness?

So instead, why not find healing for my relationship to what’s here? Instead of healing what’s here, why not invite healing for my relationship to it?

Last night, I was asked to check in with a cat and possibly do healing, and today, I was asked to do the same for human belly cramps and headache. So instead of of I have done in the past – checking in, find curiosity for the path of resolution leading to healing, and inviting in and supporting that path – I did something else.

I checked in, got a sense of what was going on, and found where the following already is true for me in how I relate to this discomfort, pain, and illness:

You are welcome here. You are welcome here, as you are.

I am sorry for having pushed you away, for having made you into an enemy in my mind.

Please forgive me.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for supporting him (her). Thank you for coming from love.

I love you.

This comes from a recognition that all already is Spirit and Love. It’s God’s will, God’s love, and it is God and Love. And our discomfort and suffering comes from our relationship with what’s here, our struggle and making it into an enemy in our mind.

So by inviting in a healing of my relationship with it, something shifts. And, for me, the only comfortable way of doing it is to be very honest, very real.

Can I find where it’s already allowed, already welcomed (by existence, by God, by life, by awakeness)? Can I find where I genuinely welcome it?

Can I find where I am sorry for having pushed it away for so long? Can I find where I am sorry for having made it into an enemy in my mind?

Can I find where I genuine wish to ask for forgiveness?

Can I find where it – whatever I made into an enemy – comes from and is love? Where I am sincerely grateful for it being here?

Can I find my genuine love for it, as it is?

Inviting a shift in my relationship with the discomfort, pain, illness, may or may not be followed by a shift in the discomfort, pain, and illness itself. There are many reasons for this. Discomfort is created entirely from how I relate to it, from making it into an enemy in my mind. A significant part of pain is similarly created from how I relate to it, from making it into an enemy, holding onto my images and thoughts about it as solid and real. Even illness may shift as my relationship with it changes. As someone said, what we resist persist.

And if I notice a very natural impulse for the discomfort, pain or illness itself to change, can I welcome that too? Can I see where this impulse comes from love? Where it’s devoted to me, to my well being?

You are welcome here. Thank you for being here. Thank you for your devotion to me. Thank you for your love for me. I love you.

Note: This is very similar to ho’oponopono, and also very similar to how Pamela Wilson guides friends, and what’s found many other places. I have explored this in how I relate to my own emotions, pain, discomfort etc., and now I am exploring it in a slightly different way as well.

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Initial draft….

In my teens, I noticed I could invite in healing for others. I could – and can – check in and get a sense of what’s going on for them, what will support a resolution and health, and invite in a resolution and health, and it worked. And yet, it felt a bit off. There were repercussions for me from inviting in healing in this way.

And the reason why was clear from early on: I couldn’t know that what I invited in, guided by images of health etc., was better – for the person, for others, for the world – than what was already there. It all came from taking images and thoughts as true. Images saying that health is better than illness, pain better than comfort, and so on.

So I have rarely mentioned this gift to anyone, and rarely used it other than in emergencies and when I have been asked. A few months ago, I asked to be shown a different way, a way that would feel more right and comfortable for me.

Last night, I was asked if I could do healing for a cat with health problems, and this morning I was asked if I could do it for human belly problems. And this time, I was guided to do it differently.

I checked in, as usual and got a sense of what was going on. (It’s usually mirrored in my own body.) I found myself saying, silently, to the belly problems:

You are welcome here. You are welcome here, as you are.

I am sorry for having pushed you away, for having made you into an enemy in my mind.

Please forgive me.

Thank you for being here. Thank you for supporting him (her). Thank you for coming from love.

I love you.

And in each case, I stayed with each sentence, found where this was genuine for me, and said it silently. The sentences came as a question. I found where each was genuine, and said it silently.

With the belly ache:

You are welcome here. You are welcome here, as you are.

I am sorry for having pushed you away. I am sorry for making you into an enemy.

Please forgive me.

Thank you. Thank you for being here. Thank you for supporting her. Thank you for coming from love. (It’s the body doing it’s best to digest, and signalling that this food, in this amount, right now, doesn’t quite work. It’s feedback, guidance to take a closer look, pay attention, eat a little differently.)

I love you.

What I notice is that through this, I am healing my own relationship with it. I am not doing it to make it go away or change. I am just healing my relationship with it, and an ancient way for us humans to relate to illness, pain, and discomfort. And that’s enough. That’s what I really wish for myself.

And when I notice a very natural impulse in me wishing for it – the pain, illness, discomfort – to go away, I meet in in a similar way. You are welcome here. Thank you for being here for me. Thank you for wishing the best for me. Thank you for coming from love. I am sorry for having pushed you away for so long. Please forgive me. I love you. And for each of these, I take some time and find if and where it’s genuine for me. If I can’t find it, that’s OK. I just move on, and may return to it – as a question – later. This is all about finding what’s real for me, what’s already here.

 

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