When I open to what’s here – discomfort, unease, sadness, grief, despair, joy, exhilaration – it’s a form of inquiry. What do I notice?
As with any inquiry, it’s mainly wordless and what’s found may be labeled or not. The label may happen very quietly, as a whisper, a gentle question.
Here are some of the things I have noticed, reflected in words:
I get to notice parts of me innocently protecting me from opening up. I am invited to notice the fear behind it, images or thoughts saying something terrible will happen, it will be too much, it will get worse. I am invited to notice they are here to protect me, and come from total devotion and love. I am invited to open to these too.
I am invited to notice the fear behind what I am opening up to, it’s innocent protect of me, that it comes from total devotion and love.
I can invite these parts of me to gently inquire. What is your function? What do you protect? Who are you really? What’s your relationship to presence (love, awakeness)?
What’s opened up to becomes an object. From being identified with, it becomes an object within this presence. It’s an object and it’s presence itself.
When it discover for itself what it’s function is, what it’s protecting, what it really is, that it is presence (love, awareness), something naturally shifts.
I am invited to notice that opening up is already happening. Only an image and a thought will say it’s not already opening to what’s here. And yet, the intention to open up, the noticing that it’s already here, makes a difference.
I get to see that the “me” the part of me wishes to protect is an image and a thought, overlaid on sensations, sights, smell, taste, sound. And it’s all presence.
I am invited to notice that the “I” observing and doing this, the “center”, is an image and a thought, and presence itself. This too can go from what presence temporarily takes itself to be, to be recognized as an object and presence itself.
I am invited to notice the pure innocence in identification. It too comes from an intention to protect, it’s pure devotion and love. It’s presence.
I am invited to notice that what a thought may call meditation, inquiry, prayer, and devotion all point to this.