Giving it over to Christ. Experience what’s here and give it over to Christ.
That too is a form of inquiry, an experiment. What happens, what do I notice?
I notice some of the beliefs and fears not wanting to do it. The thoughts saying that something terrible will happen if I give it all over to Christ. I won’t be in control anymore. (And that I am in control if I don’t hand it over. That I can be in control. It’s possible to be in control.)
I notice the relief, the sense of coming home.
I notice I still function in everyday life as before, and perhaps from more heart and clarity.
I notice the relief in giving it all over, including what seems the most dense, and the most personal, the most like who and what I am.
I notice it’s a prayer, a meditation. It’s an intention to shift center of gravity from identified to non-identified mind, from being blindly caught up in beliefs to more clarity, from head to heart, from this human self to Christ. (And I notice how all those words seem very clunky, far from the utter simplicity and beauty of it.)
I notice it’s all already Christ, including confusion, frustration, dullness, brain fog, tiredness, anger, what mind takes to be mine, me and I. By giving it over to Christ, it’s easier to notice it’s already Christ.
I notice how it all – the whole field of experience without exceptions – seems more transparent, more alive as awakeness, presence, love.
– giving it over to Christ
– the mind giving it over from identified mind to nonidentified mind (from “small self” to “Big Mind/Heart”)
– an intention, question, exploration
– giving all over, including/especially that which feels most personal, most me or i
– if seems difficult, hand that over too (the fear, dullness etc.) + can ask for help