I keep seeing how much the mind is trying to protect itself from meeting (feeling/feeling/loving) certain parts of itself.
It does so through tiredness, distractions, going into thought/analysis, fear, a sense of chaos and instability and so on. Whatever it has available is used. And this is also reflected in my life, in how I live my life.
It’s all innocent. The mind is trying to protect itself, or the image of a me and I, from harm. It’s devoted. It comes from love. It is love.
It’s identified with these images and ideas of protection, harm, and a me and I to protect.
And what it wants is love, know it’s cared about, that it matters, that what it needs matters, that it has a voice, that they have something to give me, to contribute.
So I can meet this protection part of my mind in satsang. You are welcome here. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for your love for me. How would you like me to be with you? What would satisfy you forever? What are you really?