I keep seeing a part of me that wants control. It wants to control the process. It wants to know what will happen. It wants to understand, so it can regulate the process.
And behind it is fear, and also lack of trust in life, Spirit, and perhaps especially myself. This part doesn’t trust I won’t mess it up.
These feel like very young parts, and they are innocent and come from love, a somewhat confused love.
How is it to meet this fear, lack of trust, and wanting control, with love? (Metta, tonglen, ho’o, placing it in the heart flame etc.)
How is it to take this to inquiry?
How is it to feel the sensations that come up around this? Breathe, feel, give it over to the divine?