I have written a couple of other posts on this topic, but find I am drawn to writing something again.
Why doesn’t this experience have to go away?
It’s me. It’s who and what I am, here and now. (And here and now is all there is. Any thoughts of past, future, or present happens here and now.) Why would I want to push parts of me away? Why would I want the pain of rejecting parts of me?
It’s here to protect me. When I look, I find that anger, sadness, discomfort, joy….. it’s all here to protect me. It’s all here to protect this human self, and the (literally) imagined self. I notice that here and now, and I also see that these impulses are put in me through evolution, and is what has made the survival of all my ancestors possible.
It’s from love. It’s here to protect me, so it’s from love.
It is love. It’s a form of love. (See the two previous points.)
It’s awareness. When I look, I find it’s all awareness. Any experience is awareness. It’s all – all of what a thought may call a me, experiencer, emotion, sensation -part of a seamless field of awareness. (And when I look for awareness, that’s unfindable.)
It’s already allowed. This experience is already allowed…. by life, mind, existence. It doesn’t work to try to change that.
Anything else is painful. Trying to push it away is painful. It’s suffering. It’s struggle. It’s futile.
It’s a relief. It’s a relief to notice that what’s here is already allowed. It’s already welcome. It’s already love. It’s already who and what I am. The experience itself softens. There is a sense of coming home. There is a quiet, soft, deep sense of satisfaction.
P.S. One way to explore if an experience really has to go away, is is to ask oneself: Is it true this experience has to go away?