Looking at or for exhilaration:
Look at the word “exhilaration”. Take your time. Is that exhilaration? Yes, it feels that way.
Feel those sensations. Take your time. Where are they? Chest, jaw, face. I see a picture of the sensations with the word “exhilaration” on top of it.
Look at that image. Is it exhilaration? No, but the sensations still feel like it.
Feel the sensations. Notice the space they are happening within. Rest with the sensations. Do you see any images or words? I see the word “exhilaration”.
Look at the word. Is it exhilaration. Yes, it feels that way. Sensations in the face.
Feel those sensations. Are they exhilaration? No.
Rest with what’s here. Where do you find exhilaration? Sensations in the throat.
Feel the sensations. [A loop here with image of the throat, sensations in the face, picture of lower part of the head, sensations in throat.] The sensations in the throat seem to command me to do something.
What tells you there is a command there? An image of movement from the throat and up and out.
Look at that image, or movie. Is that movie exhilaration? No.
Where do you find exhilaration now? Face, slightly.
Feel the sensations. Are they exhilaration? No.
Where do you find exhilaration? Slightly in my belly.
Feel it. Is it exhilaration? No, but there seems to be a command there to do or act.
What tells you there is a command there? An image of a movement out and up.
Look at the image. Does that image command you to do or act? No.
Feel the sensations in the stomach again. Rest with them for a while. Are they exhilaration? No, they are sensations.
Where do you find exhilaration? Slightly in the throat.
Feel that. [A loop looking for a command to push down the exhilaration, sensations in stomach, an image of pushing down.]
Can you find exhilaration anywhere? No.
Rest with what’s here.
I had some green tea about an hour ago, and it often makes me feel something my mind tells me is exhilaration. Now, I can’t find it. The sensations are here, and they feel more or less as they did before this looking, but they don’t seem like exhilaration anymore. They are more just sensations, with some images and words floating around.