Are you wondering why, after all these years, you still haven’t healed, awakened, transformed? Why your pain, confusion, doubts, sorrows, your deep longings for home, are “still here”?
“I should have found the answers by now. By now, my sorrow should have disappeared. By now, I should be free from fear. By now, I should be feeling more peaceful, clear, awakened. By now, joy should be consistent, my natural state. By now…”
Friends, ‘by now’ is the biggest damn lie of all!
There is no such thing as ‘by now’. There cannot be a ‘by now’.
There is only Now. Only this moment.
No ‘by’. No ‘still’. No ‘yet’. Healing is not a destination.
If we can drop the expectations and the false hopes around healing, drop the myth of ‘by now’ and instead bow to what is actually here, honour our present experience, see its sacredness and its intelligence, celebrate THE WAY WE ACTUALLY ARE TODAY, even if we feel sad, even if we experience doubt, or anger, or fear, then we may experience a total paradigm shift…
“Pain, sadness, anger, fear, why are you still here? I hoped that you’d be gone by now!”
“Ohhh! You ARE here! Yes! What an honour to meet you, here! You are life, too; a sacred wave of consciousness! There is no mind-made story that says you shouldn’t be here! No demand for you to have disappeared ‘by now’! You are not ‘still’ here, of course; there is no time. You are here, now, in this moment, only! Still here! I am still, here! And in the stillness that I Am, in this oceanic field of Presence, we can truly meet…”
A thought or feeling does not arise to be healed, friend; it arises to be HELD, lightly, in the loving arms of presence.
So that’s why you feel like you’re ‘not there yet’.
You are not there yet! You will never be there!
There is no ‘yet’. There is no ‘there’. There is no ‘by now’!
You are here. You are always here. You will always be here. Here is your home and your sanctuary.
This is true healing: the surrender into Presence. The sense of being held by something infinitely greater than yourself. No time required.
This is the great paradox of healing: You are already healed.
– Jeff Foster