It’s not what I am?

 

It’s popular in non-dual circles to say it’s not what you are, referring to emotions, thoughts, this body, and anything else we take ourselves to be in the changing world of experience.

There is some truth to that, it’s reverse, and also in the more conventional views.

From the view of what we really are, we can say….

It’s not what I am (I). Experiences – including emotions, thoughts, sensations, this body, my experience of the wider world  – come and go, and I seem to be something that doesn’t come and go. I am that which all of this happens within and as. Or, we can say I am the whole, or the awakeness, or even the void all of it is happening within and as.

It is what I am (I). At the same time, we can say that whatever is happening is what I am. Whatever is my current experience – with sensations, emotions, thoughts, this body, the wider world – is what I am. It’s unavoidable. It’s happening within and as what I am.

And we can also look at this from a more conventional view.

It’s not what I am (II). Changing states and experiences are not what I am, in a conventional sense. They may be part of me. But they come and go. As a human being, I am both more than these and something more stable. (Although that more stable, a more stable personality, also changes over time.)

It is what I am (II). In a conventional sense, not negated by the (I)s above, I am this human being. To others, I am this human being in the world. In a pragmatic sense, I am this human self in the world.

We can use any of these as a pointer. The not what I am pointer can be helpful if the mind habitually identifies as content of experience. The I am what’s here pointer can be helpful if we are more identified with or as (our ideas about) awakeness.

The not what I am (II) pointer is helpful if we are not ready or ripe for the first ones, and it speaks to the parts of us functioning within a conventional experience. And the is what I am (II) pointer is equally valid and helps us function in the world.

Using each of these, and additional ones, can help us stay a bit fluid and not get stuck in any one particular view. Or, more accurately, we can use these pointers to see where we tend to reside and see how we can unstick a bit.

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Initial notes….

  • is not what I am?
    • is not what I am
      • content of experience is not what I am, bc am that it happens within and as
      • larger picture, is not what I am – am the whole, the void it’s happening within and as, the awakeness it’s happening within and as
    • is what I am
      • also, is what I am, when it’s here it’s what I am
    • use one or the other as pointer
      • if identified with parts of content of experience, the first can be helpful
      • if identified with / as awakeness, big mind, then the second
      • helps to become more fluid, free of specific views
    • ….

 

from previous post notes: a good reminder that (a) I am doing it for other reasons, (b) bliss as any experience comes and goes, so will go again, and is not what I really, ultimately am (although am it when it’s here, as I am any experience when it’s here)

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Initial draft….

It’s popular in non-dual circles to say it’s not what you are. Content of experience is not what I am. I am not these thoughts, emotions, states, or this human body. I am that which it happens within and as. I am what a thought can call awakeness that all happens within and as.

And that’s true enough. From a certain view, any experience is not what I am. Experiences – including emotions, thoughts, states, this human body – come and go, and I seem to be that which does not come and go. I am the whole, the void it’s happening within and as, the awakening it’s happening within and as.

At the same time, it is what I am. Whatever is here in my experience now is what I am. It’s unavoidable.

We can use one or the other as a pointer. The not what I am pointer can be helpful if the mind habitually identifies as content of experience. And the I am what’s here pointer can be helpful if we are more identified with or as (our ideas about) awakeness or Big Mind. Using both, and additional ones, can be helpful to stay a bit fluid and not get stuck in any one particular view on this. Or, more accurately, we can use these pointers to see if we are stuck in any of them.

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