I am going through some – perhaps all? – of the verses from the beautiful Gospel of Thomas to share what comes up for me. I may also give a commentary or response from a few different viewpoints to make it more interesting. The Gospel of Thomas is thought to be older than the four gospels in the New Testament and may be a source for these.
2. Jesus said, “Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. [And after they have reigned they will rest.]”
I will explore this through the voices of Big Heart and Big Mind.
I love you as you are and you are love as you are, whether you know it or not and whether you seek love or your true nature or not. If life and love and all of existence has moved you to seek, then keep seeking until you find me and find me as what you always and already are.
At first, you – in the form of a human being – may be disoriented by what you find and you may be disturbed by seeing that all of what you held as true wasn’t true in the way you thought.
There is another way you may be disturbed. At some point in the process, you may be disturbed because all in you that was formed within not knowing all as love will need to be loved and recognized as love and heal through that. It’s a beautiful process, more beautiful than you may be able to see as it happens. And some experience it as deeply disturbing as it happens.
You will find an infinite richness and fullness in finding me as you and you as love and all as love and always having been love. (Even that which humans see as not love at all is love, it’s love in disguise. It’s love temporarily taking these forms and forgetting that it is itself.)
And you will find a rest beyond anything you have every imagined, even as you are active in the world. When you find me as you, and your human self gets infused with this and used to it, you will find a deep rest.
If you are drawn to seek me – which is me seeking myself – then keep on until you find.
As a human being, you may be disturbed by what you find. You discover that what you believed, including your most basic assumptions about yourself and reality, are not true the way you took them to be.
You will also marvel when you discover yourself as me and everything as me.
As me, you will reign over all since all happens within and as me, although that’s an old-fashioned way of talking about it and I wouldn’t say it that way now.
And as you become more familiar with me and everything as me and living from it, you will relax and rest in and as it even as you are in activity.
In my own voice:
If we have an urge in us to discover the nature of ourselves and reality, then keep exploring. When we discover that even our most basic assumptions about ourselves and reality may not be true, or as true as we thought, we may be disturbed. As we get more used to it, we marvel. And we “reign” over all since the world as it appears to us happens within and as us. And as we get even more familiar with it and mature within it, we rest. We find a deep rest.
At some point in the process, you may also be disturbed as your human self reorganized within all as love since anything in you that was formed within not knowing all as love has to heal.
At some point in the process, you may also be disturbed because all in you – as a human self – that was formed within not knowing all as love will need to surface to be loved and recognized as love and heal through that.