Diálogo con la Alejandra que ha vivido por eones (Alejandra’s dialog with one who has lived eons)

 

Here is my partner Alejandra’s dialog with the version of herself that has lived eons.

Este es un ejercicio de diálogo con la Alejandra que ha vivido por eones, esto es lo que ella puede responder a mis propias preguntas:

(Este ejercicio se lo propuso a sí mismo mi compañero de vida y sentí un gran deseo de llevarlo a cabo también).

¿Cómo ves el mundo?

Como una hoja que es movida por el viento, o un vórtice infinito de estrellas que aparecen cuando las miro y desaparecen cuando me ausento. Como una lágrima humana, fractal que sabe a artemisa y que huele lluvia.

Veo al mundo como una olla de barro gigante y en su interior se cuecen libros llenos de hechizos, espadas, rocas y dinosaurios. El mundo es un beso largo y es la caricia del asesino, la última exhalación. La cabeza cayendo y La corona erguida en el aire. El mundo es trémulo y consistente, es el gato, la fuente y el laberinto. ¿Qué no es el mundo si no todo lo que el espejo de la conciencia experimenta? Lo que se olvida, lo que se anida y se pudre. La incertidumbre, el corazón de las galaxias que es el mismo mío y el mismo tuyo. La gota, el trino, el agujero, la piel del amado y sus zapatos debajo de la cama.

¿Tienes un consejo para Alejandra? (Esta entrevistadora)

Permite aún más intensamente que tu colchón de flores se hunda en el universo. Que se desvanezca en tu corazón el aliento Divino. Camina como si volaras y atraviesa lenta y profundamente las cúpulas que te limitan. Pon un rezo en los ríos de tu sangre para que desemboquen en lo desconocido. Cree que infinitas son las direcciones y que de una pizca de arena el universo está hecho. Besa las rejas que a la bestia haz puesto para que se transformen en aire. Escúchame y olvídame.

¿Hay alguna pregunta que te gustaría que te hiciera?

No hay una sola pregunta y una sola respuesta que no las contenga a todas.

¿Qué es lo que más disfrutas?

La ausencia de ausencias. Las tres monedas del I ching girando en el aire, el espasmo del péndulo, la visión completa del reencuentro y la partida. La mano De Dios dibujando una historia. Cuando las palabras explotan mucho más allá de su significado. El juego, la paradoja, la ceremonia del instante. Disfruto profundamente lo que más detesto.

¿Hay algo de lo que estás cansada?

Nada dura lo suficiente para cansarnos. Todo renuncia a su forma incluso antes de tenerla. Infinitas son las líneas e infinito su vacío.

¿Hay algo más que estés aprendiendo actualmente?

El misterio. La indescifrable, eterna y misteriosa danza de la vida y la muerte. Este espasmo que se provoca porque no hay línea divisoria entre la una y la otra. Aprendo lo que ya aprendí una y mil veces. Los caminos aunque ya recorridos siempre están lustrosos, llenos de todo lo que antes experimenté y que no puedo recordar.

¿Cuáles libros y música te gustan?

La música que hace el fuego del universo cuando crepita y los libros que contienen las plantas que hay en las selvas. Ellos están juntos y han sido creados y son creadores. Estamos escuchándolo todo y leyéndolo todo al mismo tiempo. La semilla recién sembrada en la tierra ya está floreciendo en una galaxia lejana y alguien con ocho ojos se está masticando la fruta.

¿Es posible cometer errores?

¿Acaso existen los errores? ¿Acaso hay algo que sea correcto y algo que no lo sea? Aún en el profundo sentir de la imperfección la semilla está sembrada, la creación no está dotada de separación, el error no es más que una interpretación.

¿Qué piensas acerca del condicionamiento?

Más que pensarlo lo siento, lo siento a veces como una ola gigante que me tumba en la interpretación, en la comparación, en la dualidad. Me hunde en las aguas de La Luz, me destierra, me abandona, me danza, me trastorna. El acondicionamiento es la misma llave de la liberación de él mismo. Lo he atesorado y lustrado, lo he cubierto, lo he mecido y arrullado y también lo he despertado.

¿Cómo ves la espiritualidad no dual?

No existe una espiritualidad que pueda ser dual. No existe nada que pueda ser dual. Las palabras siempre serán reducidas, cortas cuando el espíritu quiere expresarse. No hay un lugar ni un tiempo específicos en el que esté ocurriendo esto. No hay una realidad y otra y otra, sólo hay espíritu, absoluto, indivisible. Es el condicionamiento, la interpretación quienes pueden hacer ver la inexistente y muy real posibilidad de que estamos separados. Todo existe al mismo tiempo, todo se desvanece al mismo tiempo. Cuando ya no haya que nombrar la espiritualidad, ni la dualidad, ni la vida, ni la muerte, ni a Dios; cuando ya dos ojos sean uno, todo desaparecerá. Y no podremos reconocer a un entrevistador y a un entrevistado y como dije antes, todas las preguntas serán las mismas respuestas. O simplemente no habrá preguntas ni habrá respuestas.

Only lovers left alive: a dialog with someone who has lived for centuries

 

I haven’t seen Only Lovers Left Alive yet, but read enough about it to know that the two main characters have lived for centuries and have amassed a huge amount of experience and perhaps some wisdom in the process.

So I thought it would be fun to try a dialog with someone who has lived for centuries.

When we use Voice Dialog / the Big Mind process, we typically dialog with parts of us that are obviously here like the voice of appreciation, the victim, or Big Mind / Heart.

There is no part of me that had lived for centuries. Or is there? I can easily enough imagine how it would be to have lived for generations, and access that voice or part of me.

And in a quite real sense, I have in me something that had lived for that long. Something that has, through culture, accumulated experience and wisdom over generations.

In another quite real sense, as part of this living Earth, and as part of this universe, I am billions of years old. Everything in me is the product of billions of years evolution of the universe and this living planet, millions of years of evolution of pre-human ancestors, and hundreds of thousands of years thousands of my human ancestors.

So, yes, I can probably dialog with a voice in me that has the experience and wisdom from having lived for generations.


Dialog with one who has lived for generations.

Can I speak with the voice that has lived for generations?

Yes.

How do you see the world?

Not so different from you. Just from more experience. I am much less caught up in the daily fluctuations compared with you and others who have only lived for a short time. I have seen it all. It all comes and goes. Disappointment. Elation. Health. Illness. Birth. Death. It’s all part of life, and I have seen all of it enough to not get caught up in it.

Does it mean you are detached?

For a while, I tried detachment and distance, but that’s deadly boring in the long run. It’s much more juicy to feel and be engaged and play the game, but I am not caught in it. I know it all, including my responses, comes and goes.

It sounds a bit like the wisdom of the Buddha?

Yes, I knew him. Good fella. (That’s a joke, by the way. I was somewhere else back then.)

But yes, it’s pretty similar. I think that anyone who lives for generations will develop that kind of wisdom or view on life. It’s almost inevitable.

Do you have any advice for P.? (This interviewer.)

Well, let’s see. I think he knows it already but hasn’t taken it in fully. He doesn’t completely trust it or allow himself to live from it. So if I can help, here it is.

He allows himself to worry about things that are regular parts of life, it’s the universal ups and downs. And he sometimes takes it more personally than he needs, and get more caught up in it than he would if he had longer experience. Life is not about him. Life just happens, as it does for everyone. Stay engaged, play the game, and know it’s not personal and most of the details are not even that important in the long run. Just do your best.

How do you see the world today?

Most if not all of the problems come from people being short-sighted. They think locally and act short-term, and although that worked in the past when humanity was smaller and had less powerful technology, it doesn’t work anyone. There are too many people, with too powerful tools, for that to work.

Humans need to imagine bigger, or at least enough need to, so they can create new systems that take deep time and global situations (like ecosystems) into consideration.

Human nature won’t change, but humans adapt their behavior to the system they are in.

(I should add: Human nature does change, but not very quickly. Not on the scale of centuries or decades.)

Is there a question you would like to be asked?

Hm. I like that question. Ask me what I enjoy the most.

What do you enjoy the most?

The changing seasons. The seasons of nature, of human life, of generations and human history.

The very small things, the ordinary. A cup of tea. Saying hello to a stranger. Waking a dog. Reading a book. Weathering an illness.

The new. A new dish. A new sunrise. A new here and now.

It’s there anything you are tired of?

Not really. Perhaps the predictable, or at least thinking something is predictable. I have seen enough to know it’s not. I guess that’s something I am still learning.

Is there anything else you are currently learning?

I am not sure. I think it’s mainly noticing how everything is fresh.

The mind sometimes tells me that this is something I have experienced more times than I can count, and although that’s true in a way, it’s not the whole picture. This experience is fresh.

I guess that’s another parallel to what Mr. Buddha and others have talked about. And it is the only way to stay fresh and keep enjoying – and not only enjoying but deeply enjoying — life when you live and live and live as I do.

What music, art, and books do you like?

Anything. Anything from any culture and period. What’s familiar and what’s new. High culture and trash. It’s all juicy.

Is it possible to make a mistake?

Well, it depends on what you mean. Of course, we sometimes make mistakes in a small perspective. We bungle things. Make poor decisions. Or make good decisions that turn out badly.

In a bigger perspective, those are not really mistakes. We do what we can based on who and how we are and the situation we are in. And we get feedback from life and have an opportunity to learn. So in that sense, nothing is really a mistake.

What do you think about conditioning?

That’s something I have a lot of experience with. Conditioning is the operating system of humans or at least a large part of it.

Patterns are passed on through the generations, with some variations. Patterns of what’s seen as good and bad, right and wrong; and patterns of likes and dislikes, cultural and family hangups and traumas; ideas about heaven and hell, gods and demons, how the world works, and just about anything else that’s part of how humans function.

When you take a generational view, you see how it’s not personal. It’s all passed on. And then we make it personal, and we have a chance to not take it as personal if we realize what’s going on.

Even how we function as a body is conditioning, passed on with some variations through all our ancestors back to that first single-celled organism.

And how this universe works is conditioning.

Some talk about conditioning as if it’s bad or something we need to get rid of, but that’s a superficial view. We are made up of conditioning. Our bodies wouldn’t function without it. Our society wouldn’t function without it. We would have no chance to function, or survive, or exist, without it. It’s the fabric of what we are.

The only conditioning we need to be concerned about is the one of wounds and hangups, and even here how we relate to it is more vital than getting rid of it. Of course, we can do some of both.

And a part of this conditioning is the beliefs and ideas passed on through the generations that creates pain for us, and an unnecessarily limited life when we hold them as true.

How do you see non-dual spirituality?

I hoped you wouldn’t ask. Yes, it’s pretty close to reality. And in the modern western version, it’s often taken as a belief, something to hold onto to feel secure and try to stay safe. For many who are into it, it’s a security blanket. They just exchanged traditional religion for neo-Advaita. That’s fine but if they are not honest about it, they are deluding themselves.

If I am honest, and I know I sound like an old curmudgeon, many would do better to heal their emotional issues. They would find more ease and real contentment that way.

That sounds a bit harsh?

Well, yes. It’s just that I have seen versions of it so many times, in so many periods and cultures. People are in pain. And they seek and latch onto a belief – a religion or philosophy or political system – that promises to give them relief. And the real relief is in healing the pain, not getting obsessed about a system or philosophy.

To be continued…

A note: When I wrote this, I imagined dialoguing with a relatively average person who has lived for centuries. My partner dialogued with the version of herself that has lived for eons. And it can be fun to explore even more versions: the mystic, the poet, the wise man/woman, the scientist, the warrior, the one who loves earth, the one who loves humans, the one who loves life, the one who has lived innumerable lives in places around the whole Cosmos.