Any question rests on assumptions.
So one resolution to the question is to (a) identify these assumptions, and then (b) examine them.
There are of course many other types of answers too, each one potentially helpful in its own way.
One question may be why did I lose my awakening?
Assumption: It’s lost. Question: Is it true it’s lost? Is it true it’s not here now? Can you find it in immediacy? (Even if it’s perhaps less strong, more in the background?)
Assumption: It belonged to me. Question: Is it true it is yours? Is it true it was yours in the first place? Is it true it belongs to a person?
And there are other types of answers. For instance….
It’s a very common experience. It’s here, then apparently gone.
Also, it may appear gone for a couple of different reasons.
(i) It’s here, but doesn’t look the way you expect. You associate it with how it appeared initially…. perhaps in the foreground, extremely clear. It may still be here, only more quietly and in the background.
(ii) As soon as identification (beliefs, velcro) returns, the clarity may appear to be gone. This is not a bad thing or wrong. It shows you what’s left. It is an invitation to meet these identifications with presence, love, and curiosity.