It is obvious.
- True? Feels that way. My mind tells me it is obvious. My body tells me it is obvious. (It reacts the way it does when my mind tells me something is true, and the world sometimes doesn’t agree.)
- Sure? No. Not at all. I know it is not true, but it doesn’t touch how I feel that it is true.
- What happens when I believe that thought?
- I see something as obvious: an insight, a skill, certain knowledge. As soon as it is included into what is familiar to me, it is fair game for being included in what I take as obvious.
- So I don’t share it, don’t pursue it, leave it to others to do something about if they want. I don’t share insights. I don’t share talents. I don’t pursue explorations and development of skills, or if I do, I tell myself it is obvious, am at war with myself, and don’t share whatever I am exploring and developing.
- I put others down, because what they say and do is obvious, but only if they see it as not. Whenever someone presents something as special, and is rigid about it, it triggers reactiveness in me and I tell myself that it is obvious. Why do they present something as special when it is obvious? I put them and it down in my own mind. I avoid them and whatever they make so special.
- What am I not able to appreciate when I believe that thought? I am not able to appreciate insights and skills in general, as what they are free from being obvious or special.
- When did I first have that thought? Probably as a child, when adults around me made a big deal about something I had done, which I clearly saw was not too special, yet they made it into something special. To me, it was obvious, so why make it into something else?
- Who would I be without it?
- Able to appreciate insights and skills independent of ideas of them being special or obvious. That doesn’t come into the equation. It is not relevant. I am free to appreciate insights and skills as they are, and for the enjoyment people experience through it. I am even free to appreciate it when people see something as special, and insist it is special.
- It is not obvious. Whatever it is, there was a time it wasn’t obvious to me. There are many now it isn’t obvious to. And it may not be obvious to me in the future.
- I am obvious. Well, when I stay within familiar ideas, identities, experiences and so on, I am obvious to myself. When I believe my thoughts, I am obvious to myself. Predictable.
- I am not obvious. I am a mystery to myself. Everything here is a mystery. It is something else than any idea I have about it.
- My thinking is obvious. My thinking is what makes something appear obvious, when it tells me it is obvious.
Also, it is pretty predictable and follows familiar paths quite often.
- My thinking is not obvious. It just happens. Out of the blue. From nowhere. It arises as a surprise, as anything else.