Inquiry: It is better to be clear.

It is better to be clear. (Rather than confused, deluded, mistaken.)

  1. True?
    No. Although it feels that way sometimes, and I can find stories telling me it is true, and people who would agree.
  2. Sure?
    That it is true? No. Not at all.
  3. What happens when I believe that thought?
    • I set lack of clarity up against clarity. I make lack of clarity wrong, bad, undesirable, something to avoid or manipulate into being something else (aka “transform”).
    • I identify with clarity, at least as a desirable identity, so get uncomfortable when lack of clarity comes up, here or seen in someone else.
    • I seek out, learn and apply techniques to avoid lack of clarity, to use it to find clarity. Even if I aim at finding peace with lack of clarity, I do it to find clarity. I use lack of clarity to find, and identify with, clarity, in any way I can.
    • Does this thought bring peace or stress into my life? Stress. Discomfort. A sense of something to protect (clarity), and something to avoid or use to find something else (lack of clarity). A sense of precariousness.
  4. Who am I without it?
    • Genuinely OK with lack of clarity, for its own sake. Not as a means to something else.
  5. Turnarounds.
    • It is worse to be clear.
      • It is worse to think I am clear, to identify with being clear. I am caught up in a story, blinded by it, don’t see or try to avoid anything that doesn’t fit. I create a struggle.
      • Well, it has its charm to be unclear, to really take stories as real and true. It creates a great deal of drama. It can be quite fascinating. It certainly has its own value and beauty, even with all its drama and the suffering that sometimes comes out of it.
      • A limited clarity can make something wrong, split it off. It creates a sense of separation and precariousness, something to hold onto and something to push away.
    • It is better to be unclear.
      • It can be more fun at times! More juicy. Just look at those partying wildly to feel alive. Or work hard to get status or money. It may come from lack of clarity, but it is certainly juicy.
      • It can propel us to do things that offers juicy experiences, and puts us in a position for something else later on.
      • It is a phase. It has its own value, as it is. And it has value as a bridge into something else.
    • I am worse when I am clear.
      • Yes, especially if I believe I am clear. That can be intolerable to myself and others.
      • Also, I am worse when I am partially clear. What I am missing can make my clarity somewhat dangerous. For instance, I may see through the hollowness of conventional motivations, but if it is only partially seen through, I can dismiss these motivations instead of seeing their value.
    • I am better when I am clear.
      • Yes, especially when I am clear about lack of clarity. When I appreciate it as it is, without feeling I have to change it.

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