Inquiry: They should sit still.

They should sit still. (Folks at CSS retreats, and also at the David Waldman satsang this morning.)

  1. True?
    No. (Although it is easy enough to find feelings and stories that seems to support it.)
  2. Sure?
    Not at all. I also don’t know what is best for them or me.
  3. What happens when I believe that thought?
    • My attention goes to their movements. I get distracted.
    • I go into stories to support my initial belief. I compare these folks to the ones at the Zen center, where they in general sit much more still. I tell myself they can’t be doing very good mediation when they move around so much. I memorize what they do: rub their face, drink water out of their watter bottles, shuffle around on the seat, and so on. I create a composite “moving around while mediating” person that combines all I notice from everyone in the room. I create a monster out of bits and pieces from many people. I imagine myself telling about it to others, to get their support.
    • I notice this is all coming from a belief, a hangup, a fixed view, identification with an identity. It has all the typical symptoms: A sense of separation. Of something (a view, story) to protect. Tension of body and mind. Restlessness. Judgment. A sense of being right. Of getting it. I see all this, know it is from a belief, and cannot help going into it anyway, which adds another layer of stress and discomfort.
    • What do I get from holding onto that belief? I get to be right. To know how the world should be.
  4. Who would I be without it?
    • Peaceful. A sense of friendliness. Noticing them moving around, with clarity, a sense of connection, friendliness towards them as fellow human beings.
  5. Turnarounds.
    • The shouldn’t sit still.
      • They don’t.
      • What is happening is a perfect expression of dynamics happening there. Maybe a release of tension through movement. (Do I recognize that from myself? Yes.) Maybe they are not even aware of what they are doing. Maybe they are at peace with it. Maybe nobody ever suggested trying sitting still during meditation practice to see what happens.
      • It helps me see my beliefs around it, and inquire into it.
      • It encouraged me to see if the local Zen center has a retreat, which they do this coming weekend. I discovered the retreat, and signed up for it, which I most likely wouldn’t have done if it wasn’t for going to the advaita satsang, and having my beliefs around this triggered by people moving around.
      • It is an expression of life. Life=movement.
      • Whether they are aware of it or not, they investigate what is happening for them, and meditation is about investigation, not sitting still. (Shocking!)
    • I should sit still.
      • Yes, the advice is for me.
      • When I sit still, I notice many benefits, especially a more stable attention. I also notice how the energy system around the body reorganizes far more quickly and thoroughly when I sit physically still during meditation.
      • I should sit still and do inquiry into the beliefs coming up, as I do here. That feels much more true.
    • I shouldn’t sit still.
      • I don’t always. I  sometimes move because of discomfort, whether it is physical or mental.
      • I sometimes move during meditation to find that stillness that is always there, whether there is movement or not.
      • It is an expression of life, of what is alive here now. Why not allow it its life?
        • I should move through exercise and dance. Yes, true. I am already using my body in nature and outdoors quite a bit, but feel a pull to do it more. And I am attracted to different forms of dance going on locally, but only do some of them some times.
      • I should move through fixed beliefs. Yes, through inquiry and bringing the turnarounds alive in my daily life.

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