An ant on the plains

 

In the context of what we are, the human psyche is minuscle. And we all know it, even if we don’t always recognize it or take it seriously. 

When identification is,  even to some extent, released out of content of experience, we find ourselves as that which experience happens within and as. And this is capcaity for whatever is happening. It has nothing to do with size, and yet has a taste of the infinite, and is also as big as whatever content of experience is here. 

Right now, it is as big as this room. When I go outside for a walk, it is as big as the landscape, the clouds and the wind. At night, it is as big as the furthest stars. 

And although this psyche with its thoughts and emotions is not located anywhere, there is also a sense of it being located in and around this human self. The mental field creates gestalts anchoring it to sensations and images of this body. 

So in the context of what I am, my psyche is minuscle. It is a tiny part of the whole field. What I am is awakeness and capacity for whatever is happening, it is this room as awakeness itself, the landscape as awakeness itself, the clouds, wind and stars as awakeness itself, and it is thoughts and emotions as awakeness itself, as a tiny part of this immensely larger whole. 

When I take myself to be the psyche, it can seem immense and fill up my whole world, leaving just a periphery to the wider world. 

When I forget to take myself as the psyche, there is a shift into what I am and the psyche is just a tiny part of the field. It does its own thing, living its own life, as it always does, but it is just a small player on the stage. 

And we all know it. We all experience it throughout the day when we are out in nature, relax, get absorbed into whatever activity we are engaged in, forget to get caught up in stories for whatever reason. We may not notice, or recognize it as what we are, or take it seriously and as something to investigate further, but it is there. 

It is not mysterious in that sense. 

 

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Draft…

In the context of what we are, the human psyche is minuscle. And we all know it, even if we don’t always recognize it or take it seriously. 

When identification is released, even to some extent, out of content of experience, we find ourselves as that which experience happens within and as. And this has no size, and at the same time is as big as whatever content of experience is here. 

Right now, what I am has no size, and is as big as this room. When I go outside for a walk, it is as big as the landscape and the clouds. At night, it is as big as the furthest stars. 

And at the same time, what I am has nothing to do with size at all. It is capacity for whatever happens, as Douglas Harding put it. 

So in the context of what I am, this human psyche with its thoughts and emotions, is tiny. It is a speck of dust. 

When I am identified with the psyche, it can seem large, sometimes enormous, taking up a great deal of space and filling the world, filling my own world, leaving little room for anything else. 

But when what I am notices itself, even to some extent, this same psyche with its same content is very small in comparison. It is a fly on a soccer field. An ant on the savannah. 

And we all know it. When I forget to take myself as the psyche, there is a shift into what I am and the psyche is just a tiny part of the field. 

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Initial outline…

  • human mind vs. field of awakeness
    • can be identified with human mind (thoughts/emotions)
      • take oneself to be on the inside of, seem large, sometimes all there is 
      • wider world + awakeness as background
    • identification released out of, and into the field of awakeness/form
      • the human mind, as a tiny ant on the vast plains
      • useful, but tiny 
    • everyone has experienced
    • but may not always notice, or take as significant
    • can notice when relaxed, out in nature, watching a movie, etc. 
    • or through practice
      • devotion
        • prayer
      • inquiry
        • headless experiments, big mind process, exploring sense fields 
      • choiceless awareness
        • natural meditation, shikantaza

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