My longing is of two types: For things in the world (people, situations, experiences) and for God (intimacy with God, awakening).
And when I investigate, I find that all longing is really a longing for God. At the bottom of all longing is a longing for God. For awakening.
But there is nothing wrong with the longing for things in the world either. I can clarify it and use it as a guide because it is innocent and beautifully human. It is a longing for intimacy, juiciness, richness, joy, satisfaction, meaning etc.
So I can take any surface longing – for a person, situation or experience or something else.
As I clarify it some, I find that the longing is really for intimacy, meaning, richness, joy, satisfaction.
And as I clarify it even more, I find that it is sincere and genuine longing for God.
There is a beauty in this process. I find that all longing is innocent. I find that it is the most honest and natural human longing for intimacy, meaning and joy. And I find that it is really a longing for God.
No matter how the surface longing looks, I find that it is about something else and more essential. When it is clarified at the human level, it frees me up to find it in different and more ways in the world. And when it is clarified even further, I find that innocent and sincere longing for God. A love for God and reality which can be expressed in many different ways – through devotion, inquiry, allowing experience as it is, service in the world.
So how do I go about exploring longing?
One way is to stay with it and with a quiet and gentle curiosity and see if what it really is about surfaces.
Another is to see if there is a belief behind the longing that filters it a certain way and inquire into that belief.
Or I can ask myself what do I hope will happen when I get what I am longing for? And what do I hope will happen when I get that? And that? Until I arrive at what seems the most essential.
- for things in the world (people, situations, experiences) + for god (intimacy w. god, awakening)
- when investigate, find that all longing is really a longing for god
- but nothing wrong with the other longing either – can clarify and use as a guide (b/c innocent, is for intimacy, juiciness, richness, joy, satisfaction, meaning etc.)