An inquiry from a previous post, with a few more explorations.
Drama is juicy and rich.
Is it true the drama is juicy and rich?
Hm. It feels true. I sometimes tell myself it’s true.
The drama comes from taking stories as true, just as when I take a dream as true as it happens.
In a dream, the drama is experienced as full and rich.
When I wake up from a dream, I see the dream was created from images, and the drama from taking those images as real and true.
The drama was created from telling myself something was real that wasn’t.
–> So the sense of juiciness and richness has the same source.
It comes from taking stories as true.
I take stories about what’s happening as true, I take the drama as true, I take the stories of juiciness and importance as true.
–> First, I create drama for myself through beliefs, then I add another belief saying drama is rich and juicy.
It is all created from taking stories as true.
It is all created from temporary confusion.
Delusion is juicy and rich.
Is it true that delusion is juicy and rich?
Hm. Juicy and rich is a belief. Another story created from within delusion.
Taking a story as true creates something juicy and rich.
Is it true?
I don’t know.
When I have that belief, I am fascinate by beliefs. I see them as something positive. I want to create and live within beliefs.
I am resistant to inquire into them, at least to the point where they have no hold anymore.
Who would I be without it? Hm. Not drawn to beliefs in the same way. More neutral view.
Taking a story as true creates something juicy and rich –> Taking a story as true does not create something juicy and rich.
Hm. Juicy and rich is another belief, a belief added to beliefs.
It is not inherently any more (or less) juicy or rich than anything else.
–> Clarity is in many ways more rich. It allows for exploring more views. It invites following inner guidance.
Taking a story as true creates something juicy and rich –> Taking a story as true creates something dry and poor.
Yes. I can see that.
Thoughts get confined within the belief. They are in service of the belief, trying to make it appear true.
My inner guidance/knowing may be at odds with the belief, which may prevent me from acting on it.
–> I make myself smaller than I am, both as a human being and as what I am.
I make myself and the world smaller than what we are.
There is something positive in delusion.
Is it true?
Not sure. It’s just a story.
When I believe that thought, I am attracted to delusion. I want to experience it.
I create beliefs so I can experience delusion.
When I inquiry into beliefs, I hold back so some remains.
Who would I be without it? More neutral about beliefs. Willing to see through beliefs so they don’t have any footing.
There is something positive in delusion –> There is nothing positive in delusion.
Hm. That could be true.
The only positive I can find is that it’s the play of existence, but anything is that – including clarity.
And whatever positive is there in stories, is there in beliefs or clarity.
–> There may not be anything *uniquely* positive in beliefs.
There is something positive in delusion –> There is something negative in delusion.
Yes, that’s definitely true. It’s how suffering and unease is created.
The function of beliefs is to create suffering.
If there is something positive in delusion, what is it?
Hm. It creates whole worlds that seem real, as in a dream.
It is another way for the universe (life, God) to experience itself.
–> I see that this can be positive in a general sense, but it doesn’t mean it has to happen here.
–> Also, anything positive in delusion is an interpretation. It comes from a story, a belief.
There is nothing positive inherent in delusion.
For me, is there anything positive in delusion?
It helps me with empathy.
It helps me understand the dynamics of delusion.
Is it true I cannot find that in clarity?
Hm, no. Empathy and understanding the dynamics of delusion are both available in clarity.
They may be available in clarity even without having experienced delusion.
And I am already pretty familiar with delusion.
Is there something positive in delusion for me right now?
I don’t know.
Again, it’s just a story saying there is something positive there.
A story I have made into a belief for myself.
–> Reality is different. It just is without stories.
That’s what’s most true for me.
(a) I may not “need” it anymore for the reasons I thought. (Empathy, familiarity.)
I can find that through clarity, and it may always have been that way.
(b) Reality is free of those stories.
It’s free of the labels of “delusion” and “clarity”.
It’s free of interpretations of “worse” or “better”.
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Stories of juicy and rich drama are just stories.
There is nothing inherently juicy and rich in drama, and there isn’t really any drama even.
Beliefs create a smaller world – a more limited world, a world defined by the belief.
Stories of anything positive in delusion are just stories.
There is nothing inherently positive in delusion (or anything else), and clarity and delusion are also stories.
So – nothing juicy and rich in drama. Nothing positive in delusion.