Childhood wounds seems to surface now, perhaps as part of a natural process, or perhaps also invited up through inquiry or TRE.
Some thoughts related to these childhood wounds:
Nobody loves me. Nobody is here for me. The world is not a safe place.
Something is wrong with me. I am flawed. I am unlovable. I am alone.
Everyone gets it but I don’t.
Then there is the incarnation wound, whether it’s taken literally or symbolically.
I don’t want to be here.
The universe made a mistake by letting me be born.
I need to show the universe it made a mistake.
When I inquire into one of these thoughts, it’s good to find a specific situation where it came up, and then answer from that situation. It makes it more real and what comes up may be more surprising.
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I don’t want to be here.
(When I had kidney stone pain.)
True?
No.
What happens, how do you react, when you have that thought?
I resist what’s happening. I want to not be here.
I feel like a victim. Unfairly treated.
I didn’t ask to be here, and now this happens.
Anger. Resentment. Hurt.
Who would you be without the thought?
Here. Being the experience.
Turnarounds
I do want to be here.
1. This pain is part of life, part of a human life.
2. It won’t last.
3. The pain may show me something – about me, about itself.
4. It’s what’s happening.
I don’t want to be there.
1. The only “there” for me is imagination.
2. This is what life brings up for me.
3. I want to see what’s left for me (beliefs, unquestioned thoughts).
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Note:
As I started this inquiry and went into the memory of the kidney stone pain, my body had an urge to shake.
I got up, stood against a wall, and shook vigorously for a few minutes.
It really felt like shaking off a good deal of the trauma/stress from that experience.
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