Some beliefs I notice around the dark night.
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I am slow.
I should get it by now.
I won’t get it.
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It’s too hard.
It requires too much of me.
I am not up to the task.
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Others get it.
There is something to get.
It’s a test.
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It will be this way forever.
It’s overwhelming.
I won’t be able to function.
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It’s better if it’s over.
It should be over by now.
It’s lasting too long.
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This thought is true.
This feeling means something terrible will happen.
It’s too much.
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I recoil.
It’s too hard to open to it.
It’s easier to recoil.
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Collapsing is immature.
Collapsing with it isn’t healthy.
I need to know how to be with it, relate to it.
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If I open to it, it will stay.
If I am grateful for it, it will stay.
It’s terrible if it stays.
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This is not OK. What’s here is not OK.
This experience (fear, dread, anger, grief) is not OK.
This thought (memory, image) is not OK.
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It needs to be big.
It needs to be special.
(Opening to it, being with it.)
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Despair is wrong.
Despair means it will last.
It’s despair.
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All is lost.
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