Big Mind process on the Dark Night

Moving to Wisconsin.

Moving to Wisconsin – initiating the dark night – explored through the Big Mind process.

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Dark Night

Can I speak with Dark Night of the Soul? 


Who are you?

Dark Night of the Soul.

What function do you have?

I show P. what’s left. I bring it up for him. I bring him face-to-face with it. I make it so he can’t escape.

Does he appreciate it?

No. He often fights it tooth and claw.

How is that for him?

It’s quite overwhelming. He makes himself overwhelmed that way. He exhausts himself.

Do you have any advice for him?

Keep going. He already knows much of what helps. It will resolve with time.

Hang in there.

How do you see his move to Wisconsin?

Well, it was what got the Dark Night started. I got into his life then.

It was the beginning, and then I got into his life even more.

Do you see it as something he should regret?

Well, he does if he does.

For me, there is nothing to regret. It happened. I came into his life.

I brought much of what’s left up in him.

I brought up fear, hopelessness, loss, lostness, beliefs and identifications.

There is nothing to regret there. It’s just what happened.

How can he relate to you better?

Any way he relates to me is OK.

However he relates to me either reflects confusion and what’s left, it helps him see what’s left.

Or it reflects more clarity.

Either way, it’s OK.

Do you have any practical advice for him?

Be gentle with yourself. Take care of yourself.

Go for walks. Spend time with friends.

See how it is to meet what’s here, what comes up, as a friend.

It is a friend, so see how it is to meet it as a friend.

Try it out. And be gentle with yourself.

Anything else you would like to say?

Remember it’s all part of your process.

Many have gone through it before, you are not alone.

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Big Mind/Heart

Can I speak with Big Mind/Heart?


Who are you?

Big Mind/Heart?

How do you see P.’s move to Wisconsin?

 It’s all happening within and as me. Movements within the ocean.

He felt lost, but he didn’t lose me. He cannot lose me.

As Dark Night said, it helped him see what’s left.

It was an opportunity for him to find more clarity.

How did it go?

Well, he struggled quite a bit, and that’s part of the process for many.

He got to see his victim side and victim thoughts.

He still has an invitation to find more clarity on these, to find freedom in this area.

Do you have advice for P?

As Dark Night said, hang in there, you know what to do.

You know how to be with it.

Take care of your life.

Relax. Take care of yourself.

There is not so much of a hurry as you sometimes feel or think.

Continue with what seems helpful to you.

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Can I speak with loss?


Who am I speaking with?


What’s your function?

I am what allows life to be new always.

I make room for new situations, people, species, worlds.

I am one way people get to align more with reality.

I show people what’s left for them.

How does P. relate to you?

He mostly doesn’t like me.

Some of what he thinks of as his most painful wounds are because of me.

He sometimes see me as an enemy.

How do you see P’s move to Wisconsin?

I got to come into his life in several different ways.

It was good for me. And he got to see what’s left.

He got to see where he wasn’t as clear as he sometimes thought.

Do you have any advice for him?

He will have to say good bye to everyone and everything, eventually.

It’s already happening.

Life is saying good bye to everything and everyone, continually.

It’s OK. Be gentle with yourself.

Find kindness towards yourself.

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Inner guidance

Can I speak with inner guidance? 


Who are you?

Inner guidance.

What function do you have?

I provide guidance for people, a different guidance than what they find elsewhere.

I am also called the quiet inner voice, the heart, even the inner voice of God.

How does P. relate to you?

He is ambivalent towards me.

He used to appreciate me very much. For many years, I was a constant and close companion for him.

Then, he felt he was in conflict with me, about living in Wisconsin.

I was quite clear for him to get out, if he wanted an easy life, one that felt on track.

He told himself he was caught up in fears and beliefs, and didn’t follow me because of that.

He still, at times, beats himself up for it.

He even tells himself he went against God’s will.

What’s the connection between you and God’s will?

He thinks I am the same as God’s will, and I am not.

I am only the voice that tells him what’s an easy life, one that feels deeply nourishing, on track.

God’s will is quite different. It’s what is, what happens.

God’s will includes him being confused and choosing as he did.

Is P. confused about this? 

Yes. He thought – without really being aware of it or examining it – that I am the same as God’s will.

That’s been a big part of the pain for him.

He thought he went against God’s will, while he really just went against me.

How does he relate to you because of that misunderstanding?

He made himself feel burnt, even a bit scared of me.

He sometimes shies away from me.

Do you have advice for P?

Yes. I am your friend.

I only tells you what’s an easy path, what will make it feel that you are on track.

Try following me in small things in everyday life. Things that don’t matter so much.

Find confidence again through that. You used to have confidence in me, and you can find it again.

Remember my role. Don’t make it into anymore than that. I am not the same as God’s will.

You may also find it helpful to inquire into some of your thoughts on me, and find what’s more true.

You already know, and this will help you remind yourself.

God’s will

 Can I speak with God’s will?


Who am I speaking with?

God’s will.

What’s your function?

I am what makes anything happen.

I am what’s behind anything happening.

I am what happens, what’s here.

Is anything excluded from you?

No. Whatever happens is included in me.

How does P. relate to you?

He has a somewhat ambivalent relationship with me, out of confusion.

As you heard earlier, he thought his inner guidance is the same as me.

That has created confusion and pain for him.

Do you have advice for him?

Remember that I am what’s here.

Nothing happens without me.

What you sometimes think of as “your” will is also me.

It wouldn’t happen if it wasn’t for me.

When you went against your inner guidance, in your experience, that too was me.

I am completely aligned with you.

There is no separation.

You don’t need to feel or think that you went against me.

You don’t need to beat yourself up for it.

What may help you, especially here, is to identify your thoughts on this and find more clarity on them.

Everything you need to see is there.

You already know.

You just need to remind yourself, and you can.

It’s all here.

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Thank you.

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