Ordinarily that which is of the greatest profit – namely, to be ever losing oneself and becoming as nothing – is considered the worst thing possible, and that which is of least worth, which is for the soul to find consolation and sweetness, is considered best.
– St john, Dark Night of the Soul, Chapter 18.
At a certain point, it becomes more clear that situations that challenges – and sometimes makes it impossible to maintain – identifications, is a gift. And that seeking comfort – in ideas, hopes, images – is of least worth.