I am in bed. A monster holds me captured by keeping me paralyzed.
This is a good image of my experience right now. I am back in Oregon, and had the sense I would feel a bit paralyzed and drained of ambition after returning here, and that’s been my experience too. And a part of me does see whatever paralyzes me as a monster. I want to explore this further. What are the beliefs that paralyzes me? How do I relate to these beliefs and feeling paralyzed? What do I find when I take these thoughts to inquiry? What do I find through the Living Inquiries – on the scary monster, being paralyzed, being someone this is happening to? How is it to hold satsang with all of this – the monster, my resistance to it?