What if I knew it would always be like this?

I keep returning to this question too:

What if I knew it would always be like this?

If I knew that this content of experience, as it is now, would always be here?

This is a question that cuts out the future, and leaves only what’s here now.

And it’s a question that invites me to explore how I would like to relate to what’s here, or perhaps leave relating all together and find myself as it – as the content that’s here now.

For instance, I have had a sensation in my body off and on the last few weeks. It feels very icky yucky and creepy crawly, and almost like a stagnant energy. It also feels very unpleasant, and it brings up an impulse to make it go away.

If I knew this sensations would always be here, then what?

Is it true it needs to go away?

Is it true it’s not already allowed?

Is it true I cannot align more consciously with the reality that’s already here?

Is it true I cannot find peace with it?

Is it true it’s “other” than life? Is it true “I” am other than life? Is it true it’s other than what I am? (The real me?)