Scott Kiloby: My relationship to blockages

My relationship to blockages of energy in my body has been love/hate on virtually every blockage. A quiet game of waiting…

I have started out hating it, thinking of it as an unwelcome guest, like an entity I needed to get rid of. “Screw this, I never signed up for this on the spiritual path.”

None of that worked.

I tried to “no self” it away. “It’s not happening to anyone” “It’s just happening in awareness.” “it’s impersonal.” None of those ideas worked. The relationship to it was still one of clinging on some level below conscious thought.

Then came the resignation – “there it is and it isn’t going anywhere, might as well stop trying to get rid of it.”

Then came the quiet acceptance of it. “Hey, it’s not so bad, might as well make a friend out of this.”

Then came the feeling into it and the softening to it, the exploration of what I never wanted to feel (which is why the blockage was there in the first place)

Then came the loving of it. “I don’t even want this to go away.”

Then came the disappearance of it.

Not everything on the spiritual path is quick and easy. It’s not always about NOW. Love sometimes takes time.

– Scott Kiloby on Facebook

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