I thought I would write a few notes on how I am currently working on my chronic fatigue (CFS).
I mostly use the following approaches: Vortex Healing which is a very powerful form of energy work. Living Inquiries which is a modern form of traditional Buddhist inquiry. Natural Rest. (Basic Meditation). And sometimes ho’oponopno, parts work (Big Mind process), and other approaches described on this website.
Infections
Now and then, I check for the Epstein Barr virus to see if it’s back. If it is, I channel to remove it. (Happened last winter/spring.) I also check for Lyme. If it’s active, I channel so it goes back to a dormant state. I use Vortex Healing for this, and sometimes have another Vortex Healer do it for me since that’s easier.
Energy system
I use Vortex Healing to work on clearing, energizing, and optimizing my energy system.
Almost daily, I spend some time optimizing all body energies, the energy system in general, and my system as a whole. I also check the different parts of the energy system, organs, and parts of the body (like cells, mitochondria) and work on the parts and connections that need extra attention.
This summer, I focused on the deeper and more fundamental parts of the energy system: pre-natal jing, kidney essence, the constitutional energies of the energy pathways (meridians, voridians, kundalini) and the organs (primarily kidneys and lungs), and the energy production of the cells.
I plan to work more on the kidneys, nervous system, and digestive system.
My energy system feels much better than it used to and seems to be in an overall good state. For some reason, this hasn’t translated into more energy in my daily life. That’s why my next step is focusing on the fight/flight/freeze (FFF) response and any emotional issues that may contribute to an overactive FFF and the CFS (fatigue, brain fog).
Flight/Fight/Freeze
I plan to work more directly on the flight/fight/freeze (FFF) response using Vortex Healing. The FFF response is often chronically engaged and overactive for people with CFS, and is for me too. I’ll work on the FFF response in general. Some of the different systems that are part of the FFF (nervous system, endocrine, etc.). And any traumas and emotional issues contributing to an overactive FFF response.
Emotional issues
I have mainly worked on my energy system the last few months, and it’s now time to work more systematically on any emotional issues that may impact the FFF and CFS.
Using Vortex Healing, I intend for the energy to work on the emotional issue most impacting my energy system (or fatigue, brain fog). The energy goes there even if I don’t consciously know what it is, and I usually get a sense of what it is after a while.
Some specific issues I’ll work on with Vortex Healing and Living Inquiries: Wanting to hide from life (and childhood experiences related to that fear). Feeling off track (as I did both at the onset of CFS and when it returned many years later). Fears of the illness. Fear of being healthy. Fear of allowing and befriending what’s here – my situation, my discomfort – more fully.
On my list is also to explore my willingness to heal, and any fears connected with it. To work more systematically on any issues that may have triggered the initial onset when I was fifteen. (Fear of adult life, etc.) And look at any resistance to the illness so I can find more genuine peace with it as it is.
Outlook
Although last year has been difficult for me healthwise, I am generally quite optimistic. I know I can have a good quality of life even with CFS, and I know that with proper rest and continuing healing the different aspects that may contribute to the CFS, there is a good chance I’ll gradually get better.